Three day sum up Into nothing
(Fuck you DEVAN XD)
So basically I was at Lauren's. The first day was like usual. Just chilled with her watched a movie ,hung out and ate haha dont remember much. Well I do, I'm just feeling pretty sad right now. It's hard to type with eyes filled with tears. But I like it . I like the fact I can show emotion for nothing. Or have a reason and not know what it is. Maybe it's cause I'm not with her. Not able to run my hands through her hair , see the smile that makes me smile, hold her soft beautiful hands and embrasse her body into my arms. I don't know , I'm not quite sure. I do know this though, I've never felt the way i do about someone the way i do for her right now. It's different, It's special. Well at least it is to me.
Hmm I feel like crap. I realize I could care less about other people crap anymore. I feel only happy for one reason now , nothing else matters. I know I sound stupid. Like just another guy. But i don't care really. I'm tired of people telling me who I am. Trying to make me there image. I hate society. I hate all men have to be buff , short hair , no makeup, can't shave, be gay ect, ect. All the way to what color cloths someone wears. The way someone looks or acts. The rights and wrong. It's quite sad. But it's life and thats what people have become.
I want to be with her =*(. It makes me sad not to be. I miss her eyes. The eyes i could stare at till I die. I miss her touch the way she feels. I guess I'm obsessed. I don't care though. I love her kiss. It's sad I guess. The fact i want so much yet i have nothing. I have nothing to give.
Tears run from my face for a reason I do not know. The sad part is I don't mind it. I feel like i deserve to. I feel like i don't deserve to feel it though. Like i don't deserve to have a body, a mind, an emotional track.
I love her. I really do. I can't describe how much I really do. I don't know if she feels the same way. If she doesn't I guess it's just me again. Fucking with my own head Like always
I'm sorry I didn't describe my whole weekend. I loved it though. Well not really it. I loved being with her. I'll prolly finsih and acually do the journal of the three days when I don't feel like dying. I can say though, it was truelly amazing and I would ask nothing else from her but to love me back. Even if a little.
I'm gone for now
-peace-
(<3 Lycan <3)
So basically I was at Lauren's. The first day was like usual. Just chilled with her watched a movie ,hung out and ate haha dont remember much. Well I do, I'm just feeling pretty sad right now. It's hard to type with eyes filled with tears. But I like it . I like the fact I can show emotion for nothing. Or have a reason and not know what it is. Maybe it's cause I'm not with her. Not able to run my hands through her hair , see the smile that makes me smile, hold her soft beautiful hands and embrasse her body into my arms. I don't know , I'm not quite sure. I do know this though, I've never felt the way i do about someone the way i do for her right now. It's different, It's special. Well at least it is to me.
Hmm I feel like crap. I realize I could care less about other people crap anymore. I feel only happy for one reason now , nothing else matters. I know I sound stupid. Like just another guy. But i don't care really. I'm tired of people telling me who I am. Trying to make me there image. I hate society. I hate all men have to be buff , short hair , no makeup, can't shave, be gay ect, ect. All the way to what color cloths someone wears. The way someone looks or acts. The rights and wrong. It's quite sad. But it's life and thats what people have become.
I want to be with her =*(. It makes me sad not to be. I miss her eyes. The eyes i could stare at till I die. I miss her touch the way she feels. I guess I'm obsessed. I don't care though. I love her kiss. It's sad I guess. The fact i want so much yet i have nothing. I have nothing to give.
Tears run from my face for a reason I do not know. The sad part is I don't mind it. I feel like i deserve to. I feel like i don't deserve to feel it though. Like i don't deserve to have a body, a mind, an emotional track.
I love her. I really do. I can't describe how much I really do. I don't know if she feels the same way. If she doesn't I guess it's just me again. Fucking with my own head Like always
I'm sorry I didn't describe my whole weekend. I loved it though. Well not really it. I loved being with her. I'll prolly finsih and acually do the journal of the three days when I don't feel like dying. I can say though, it was truelly amazing and I would ask nothing else from her but to love me back. Even if a little.
I'm gone for now
-peace-
(<3 Lycan <3)