Freezing Cold Weather
So today I woke up feeling somewhat okay because I knew mostly how the day would go. I decided to wear all black with a red plaid skirt and was greeted by an ice cold breeze. I went to school, sat though classes, watched the homework pile up, felt my face continue to break out because of stress, and went to a friend's house. I thought I would have to drag all my books and bags all the way to her house but her parents picked us up. So we had plenty of ideas of what to do at her house but that went down the tube. Went we got dropped off at her house we were told that her cousin was gonna show up (my friend and her little brother were pissed off). So she tagged along, and to our dismay, so did her little brother and went to CVS. I really wanted to buy Johnswort pills which I happened to have enough money for, but you have to be at least 18. Shit! You can't do any fucking thing when you're just a couple months shy of being 18!!! So I will still remained stressed, unhappy, and a bit lonley. I think I'm gonna drink some cold medicine tonight and go to sleep.
As I was saying, things just remain the same. I can't find any HG to solve my whole not-maturing (a.k.a not blossoming) problem. I can't get pills to make me happy. I can only get alcohol to temporarily take me out of reality. I'll remain virtually invisible to guys, and I'll spend most of the time contemplating whether or not I should run into the middle of traffic to see if I survive (same as usual each morning). I'll day dream of when I can leave high school and say "SO LONG FUCKERS!!!" But that's still a long ways off. Almost forgot to mention, my face keeps breaking out and peeling. And my mom (no matter how much I bother her) still won't take me to a dermatologist.
Needs a drink..
As I was saying, things just remain the same. I can't find any HG to solve my whole not-maturing (a.k.a not blossoming) problem. I can't get pills to make me happy. I can only get alcohol to temporarily take me out of reality. I'll remain virtually invisible to guys, and I'll spend most of the time contemplating whether or not I should run into the middle of traffic to see if I survive (same as usual each morning). I'll day dream of when I can leave high school and say "SO LONG FUCKERS!!!" But that's still a long ways off. Almost forgot to mention, my face keeps breaking out and peeling. And my mom (no matter how much I bother her) still won't take me to a dermatologist.
Needs a drink..