i dont' know
i really don't know what to talk about anymore
my only question is, why can't i...gosh...why can't i just walk on my hands? i think that would make my day, looking at the world in a different perspective. i mean everything would be different to me, the blue sky is under me, the hard ground is below me. instead of seeing someone's face first, i'd see their knees. i dunno
wut if grass was called phone, and cutting was coined the term airing. then i'd be airing the phone instead of cutting the grass. words dont' mean jack. i could say "fuck you", but my "fuck you" means, "you are beautiful to me" except in english it means "fuck you" or something like that, so words mean nothing. i coudl flick you off and be saying "i want you to know that i care for you and look after you" but the receiving person goes "huh? fuck you?" what if i bit my thumb at you? huh?
i really don't know what i'm talking about. but what does talking mean? there is only meaning in actions unless you are high, drunk, or mentally changed because of the paint off your car, that's when actions don't really mean anything.
actually i think the only time what you do or say means anything is when times of trouble, times where the end is near, or those other times like:
right before you move to mongolia you tell someone that you've liked them since kindergarden or soemthing gay like that because you know most likely you will never see that person ever again.
or like you are in the hospital and the doctor is like "you have a 11% chance of living" so you call in your dad and you're like "well Dad, i'm dying, but i need to tell you the truth...i think you're a bastard" or something stupid like that because you think you will leave your dad feeling guilty for the rest of his life, but then you live and you feel bad for the rest of your life. why couldn't you just go to your dad and be like
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Dad
i feel: sad
when you: tell me to sleep at nine
because: i'm twenty-four years old
i think: you should let me stay up until three in the morning.
use that format and everything will be ok "i feel...when you...because...i think..."
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other times you are acting cool, acting smug, acting you dont' care or wuteva else gayness you do. gotta stop being fake
oh why are people shy near people they like? i don't know the answer to that either, my friend and i were talking about yesterday. i think you should be yourself 24/7 except when you're high, drunk, or mentally changed because of the paitn off your car because during those times it really hard to be yourself. (which i am not, except for the last one)
wow...what does it mean to be yourself? when are you being yourself? are you ever "yourself?" because i mean think about it you are constantly influenced by friends, media, and parents. so what does it mean to be yourself? i think being myself is to be...Danny Choi.
my only question is, why can't i...gosh...why can't i just walk on my hands? i think that would make my day, looking at the world in a different perspective. i mean everything would be different to me, the blue sky is under me, the hard ground is below me. instead of seeing someone's face first, i'd see their knees. i dunno
wut if grass was called phone, and cutting was coined the term airing. then i'd be airing the phone instead of cutting the grass. words dont' mean jack. i could say "fuck you", but my "fuck you" means, "you are beautiful to me" except in english it means "fuck you" or something like that, so words mean nothing. i coudl flick you off and be saying "i want you to know that i care for you and look after you" but the receiving person goes "huh? fuck you?" what if i bit my thumb at you? huh?
i really don't know what i'm talking about. but what does talking mean? there is only meaning in actions unless you are high, drunk, or mentally changed because of the paint off your car, that's when actions don't really mean anything.
actually i think the only time what you do or say means anything is when times of trouble, times where the end is near, or those other times like:
right before you move to mongolia you tell someone that you've liked them since kindergarden or soemthing gay like that because you know most likely you will never see that person ever again.
or like you are in the hospital and the doctor is like "you have a 11% chance of living" so you call in your dad and you're like "well Dad, i'm dying, but i need to tell you the truth...i think you're a bastard" or something stupid like that because you think you will leave your dad feeling guilty for the rest of his life, but then you live and you feel bad for the rest of your life. why couldn't you just go to your dad and be like
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Dad
i feel: sad
when you: tell me to sleep at nine
because: i'm twenty-four years old
i think: you should let me stay up until three in the morning.
use that format and everything will be ok "i feel...when you...because...i think..."
=====================================================
other times you are acting cool, acting smug, acting you dont' care or wuteva else gayness you do. gotta stop being fake
oh why are people shy near people they like? i don't know the answer to that either, my friend and i were talking about yesterday. i think you should be yourself 24/7 except when you're high, drunk, or mentally changed because of the paitn off your car because during those times it really hard to be yourself. (which i am not, except for the last one)
wow...what does it mean to be yourself? when are you being yourself? are you ever "yourself?" because i mean think about it you are constantly influenced by friends, media, and parents. so what does it mean to be yourself? i think being myself is to be...Danny Choi.