UGHHHHHH
I am so fucking stressed. Theres just too much going on in my life right now. I feel horrible today, so many things at once. Everything pretty much started yesterday when I was nice to Alan. He told me that he thinks Im only nice to use him, which is not true at all. He wanted things to be cool between us even if we arent together, which I was fine with. So I was nice to him. We got along for the rest of the day, then last night I went out. He ended up turning my cell back on before I left.. Which I appreciate. I went over my friends house to help him with some school stuff. The whole time, Alan was calling non-stop. Then, he started calling my friends, asking them where I was. They started calling me too. I felt horrible cause there I am, trying to spend time with my friend and everyone wont stop calling. I ended up going home and got in an argument on the way with Alan. So, I just went to Raycheals. I hung out there and ended up starting to fall asleep watching TV, so I just stayed over till 7. Things seemed so-so today and then the friend of mine told me that the part of the test I helped him on, I failed. I feel fucking horrible about it. Im truly so pissed at myself. Especially since I did so well in school when it came to that subject. Makes me feel so stupid. I asked if he was mad at me and he told me "no", but I honestly dont believe that. I havent talked to him since and it makes me so sad. Alan told me that he was going to go skating tonight and stay at TKD cause he had to be up before 6am to teach. Come to find out, he is actually going out after skating with some people. I called and asked him about it and he completely jumped my shit about how its none of my business and so on. Well, I dont get why its ok for him to call me and have my friends call me a million times when I go anywhere but if I ask him.. its not ok. I dont even care anymore. I just want all this out of my life, so I can be happy and make others happy again.
To "my friend" if you read this, I am really sorry.
Today I talked to my mom and got advice on everything thats going on. Hopefully things will goes as planned. Thanks to everyone who has supported me and helped through all of this. MUAH.
Night..
xo Daniella
To "my friend" if you read this, I am really sorry.
Today I talked to my mom and got advice on everything thats going on. Hopefully things will goes as planned. Thanks to everyone who has supported me and helped through all of this. MUAH.
Night..
xo Daniella