I just now decided that I should stop being emo on lj. I'm happy a lot of the time, dammit! And yet, it never shows because I don't feel the need to post when I'm in a good mood. So I'm going a different route tonight. I may be emoing a little tonight, but this post isn't about such problems ( Read more... )

So I fell of the face ofthe interwebz for a little- it had been 6 weeks when I decided to drop the computer. Lots and lost of fail, eh? Going without internet has been really strange. Before I killed it, I was pretty much online every night, on FB chat and LJ and up to date on my many internet things. It felt really nice. I didn't have to spend an ( Read more... )

 These last couple of weeks have been amazing. I've been getting on the computer fairly often, which means that I'm connected to people, and it's been a lot harder for me to feel sorry for myself. Because everyone I know have been showering me with *hugs* and <3's. I've been chatting with people on FB, I've gotten it so that I'm not stressing out ( Read more... )

 GAH ( Read more... )

I'm in shock. NaNoWriMo is OVER. For the year. totally OVER. And I feel kinda empty, kinda lost. I'm still writing, but it doesn't feel the same. I don't have a goal anymore, except the 100k that is not really important to me. I just want to finish my novel when it wants to be finished. And I haven't passed 77k today, which is frustrating, but I'm ( Read more... )

 And it really is one of the most important things in my life. As stressful as it can be, it makes me normal- not normal. I don't want to be anything even resembling normal. It makes me happy. It makes me fulfilled. I love the feeling of being out of breath. I love simple movements, like reaching down to touch my toes. 1-2-3-4 plie 2-3-4 straighten ( Read more... )