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Ok so exams are finally over!! thank god. I couldnt handle another day of exams and spazzing out. and it is snowing!! which i am actually mad about due to the fact i was suppoed to have a swim meet but it already got cancled...they are expecting a whole lot... any chance of no school tuesday?!? doubtfull but you never know. i mean snow storm of 05!! haha and snow wars 05 let the games begin, starting today!! g-units are here so i need any excuse to get out of the house. Sorry becs for the torture of eatin din din with the g-units. But fantisizers is amazing and i def had like more fanisizitions...i love how i make up words. it was great! i love HAETH!! HAHAHAHA...makes me feel happy for the time being...to bad i will become dissapointed though. O well. well i drove last night with kinda icy roads...ok they werent icy. but hey i drove on the pike!!! and i only stalled out once in the giant parking lot. and i drove to the gas station and filled the car up. went home too and no one was hurt. YAY! on another note. i quit swimming...ok not really but i kinda am thikning about it. i mean like WJ swimming/swimming where i give a shit about how i do. i spend to much time worrying about how well i am going to do in something where i have no future/hardly like. I really like diving but the goal is this weekend is to tell my dad i want to do it. The downside,,,he will say no. :-( it goes like this "hey dad, i awnna do diving" "ok you do dive for WJ" "yes but i wanna do it more" "why?, its going to effect your grades!" "yes it will make my grades better...i will have better time management and i need to do something besides mope around the house" "mope around the house?" "well if you were ever home you would know" --->ok i wont say this but i will be thinking it. ok so i say "i need to do something,its not that much time" "dana i dont think its a good idea..." "what if i told you i wanted to do swimming, then it would be different" "no it wouldnt" "yes it really would"...me go up to my room blast music until he finally says yes...this is the hopeful plan. The other thing is that i will hear how my dad doesnt want me to stop swimming and say you can be amazing you have blah blah blah ou could be great. why do you wanna throw that all away. my respnonse is what are you talkine about. i could go so much further in diving, have so much more fun, and i really dont like swimming/im not that good at it. UGH i hate this i hate this i hate this...swimming was all i ever knew...it has been my dream to swim, but sometimes in life you make new dreams, dreams that are more realistic and dreams that are for the better. sometimes it is hard to change your dreams, but it is always possible and in dreams, you can do whatever you want. Dana simms, day dreamer by day, dreamer by night, fantisizer in between... :-)
much love burger