All I want for my birthday is a job offer.
So I had a 3rd ER interview and crashed and burned at it also. Ok, Universe, I give. So much so, that when I was asked to come in for a 4th ER interview at yet another hospital, I didn't. I had a really negative feeling that hadn't been present with the others, and just REALLY didn't want to do it, so I didn't. Perhaps that was an opportunity I willfully passed on, but I am more inclined to think it would have been yet another rejection.
Med/surg, PCU, cardiac floors, etc. won't even talk to me, I get the polite rejection e mails from the recruiters, so I guess hospitals are out at this juncture. This frustrates me beyond measure, I'm not sure why an ER preceptorship makes me incapable of doing med/surg or other types of nursing, especially considering that I'm applying to RESIDENCIES where everyone is new... but yeah, that's an old rant now, I guess.
I interviewed for a job at a treatment facility. The nursing manager is a woman I used to work with at the clinic. She knows me and she totally wants to hire me. In her eyes I have the job, but it has to go through HR first. Well the HR lady was out of the office pretty much from the day I interviewed (she'd already left for the day when I went in) through Thursday of last week (about 2 weeks total). So in theory she's checking my references now and should be in touch with me soon. This is like week 3 since I applied. The other wrinkle is that the manager's dad is having serious healht problems so she's pretty much been out of the office too all this time. She's been checking in with me periodically, but I don't really have my advocate there on site to keep things going smoothly. So I am sitting and waiting.... and waiting.. and waiting... and time is passing, and I'm starting to stress again. This job would be perfect for a beginning job. Days, 8 hour shifts, better pay than the hospital residencies, and a relaxed dress code (i.e. I can keep my nose ring in, tattoos aren't an issue, and might even be able to color my hair creatively), benefits, etc. Even though it's pretty sub-acute care, patients are healthy outside of their addictions, it seems like a good fit. She wants to train me to do charge nursing, and I would be working with detoxing patients and also in a recovery room setting caring for patients receiving conscious sedation (thanks to ACLS certification). It's a foot in the door for psych nursing, and maybe that type of experience might help me get into an ER later on, if I could find a way to use my nursing skills. So now I really REALLY REALLY want this job, but the wait is fucking killing me. :P
If I don't get this job, I really don't know what I'll do next, considering that I'd be working now if the manager had all the power. I guess I'll be applying to nursing homes, but those scare the shit out of me. I hear stories of RN's being responsible for 20+ patients, and overseeing the LPNs and RNs and I just don't know how I'd be able to practice safely. I don't know how those nurses do it. I'd rather not risk it, but I may end up not having any choice, and that frightens me. All I know is that the money's gonna run out soon, and I really need to be a working nurse, not a college educated housewife, which is what I essentially am at the moment. Sooo tempted to put that on my facebook occupation :p Meh.
Emotions have been up n down, frustration is winning out at the moment. I should probably channel all this frustration and negative energy into something productive, like exercise, but the weather isn't consistently cooperating, and often I just feel so tired (probably from overstressing) that I have no energy or motivation to do anything. Others continue to get jobs, and the facebook posts come in waves as 3 or 4 of my cohort mates post their new jobs on their timeline and I continue to be unemployed...and I'm putting apps in, going to these interviews and trying to put my best foot forward. I'm getting tired of bitching about it, tbh, but trying not to internalize my feelings so much and this is as good a place as any to express them I guess. Blah.
In the midst of birthday week. We all have our birthdays within a 10 day span. Sophia kicked us off last week, mine is tomorrow, and Nick's is Thursday. She had a bowling/slumber party with about 8 of her friends. It was a good time watching them goof around and be silly. Giggly teenage girl sounds are pleasant to me, and they took over the basement full force. I'm going to see a show tomorrow night with my kid and some friends, for my birthday, then at the weekend we're going to do a birthday brunch with all 3 of us for Nick and I guess all of us to celebrate and close it all out. It's been a nice diversion. The weather is shaping out to be nice for the rest of the week, may even have some sun and warm, nearly hot, days coming up. I am looking forward to that.
In the meantime, I will wait a bit longer and then I guess start applying again to nursing homes, maybe temp agencies. And then if nothing pans, I will seriously consider getting Texas BON to endorse my license and start looking down there :p I just want to work and start earning money again before my loans ALL come due and shit starts to circle the drain.
Med/surg, PCU, cardiac floors, etc. won't even talk to me, I get the polite rejection e mails from the recruiters, so I guess hospitals are out at this juncture. This frustrates me beyond measure, I'm not sure why an ER preceptorship makes me incapable of doing med/surg or other types of nursing, especially considering that I'm applying to RESIDENCIES where everyone is new... but yeah, that's an old rant now, I guess.
I interviewed for a job at a treatment facility. The nursing manager is a woman I used to work with at the clinic. She knows me and she totally wants to hire me. In her eyes I have the job, but it has to go through HR first. Well the HR lady was out of the office pretty much from the day I interviewed (she'd already left for the day when I went in) through Thursday of last week (about 2 weeks total). So in theory she's checking my references now and should be in touch with me soon. This is like week 3 since I applied. The other wrinkle is that the manager's dad is having serious healht problems so she's pretty much been out of the office too all this time. She's been checking in with me periodically, but I don't really have my advocate there on site to keep things going smoothly. So I am sitting and waiting.... and waiting.. and waiting... and time is passing, and I'm starting to stress again. This job would be perfect for a beginning job. Days, 8 hour shifts, better pay than the hospital residencies, and a relaxed dress code (i.e. I can keep my nose ring in, tattoos aren't an issue, and might even be able to color my hair creatively), benefits, etc. Even though it's pretty sub-acute care, patients are healthy outside of their addictions, it seems like a good fit. She wants to train me to do charge nursing, and I would be working with detoxing patients and also in a recovery room setting caring for patients receiving conscious sedation (thanks to ACLS certification). It's a foot in the door for psych nursing, and maybe that type of experience might help me get into an ER later on, if I could find a way to use my nursing skills. So now I really REALLY REALLY want this job, but the wait is fucking killing me. :P
If I don't get this job, I really don't know what I'll do next, considering that I'd be working now if the manager had all the power. I guess I'll be applying to nursing homes, but those scare the shit out of me. I hear stories of RN's being responsible for 20+ patients, and overseeing the LPNs and RNs and I just don't know how I'd be able to practice safely. I don't know how those nurses do it. I'd rather not risk it, but I may end up not having any choice, and that frightens me. All I know is that the money's gonna run out soon, and I really need to be a working nurse, not a college educated housewife, which is what I essentially am at the moment. Sooo tempted to put that on my facebook occupation :p Meh.
Emotions have been up n down, frustration is winning out at the moment. I should probably channel all this frustration and negative energy into something productive, like exercise, but the weather isn't consistently cooperating, and often I just feel so tired (probably from overstressing) that I have no energy or motivation to do anything. Others continue to get jobs, and the facebook posts come in waves as 3 or 4 of my cohort mates post their new jobs on their timeline and I continue to be unemployed...and I'm putting apps in, going to these interviews and trying to put my best foot forward. I'm getting tired of bitching about it, tbh, but trying not to internalize my feelings so much and this is as good a place as any to express them I guess. Blah.
In the midst of birthday week. We all have our birthdays within a 10 day span. Sophia kicked us off last week, mine is tomorrow, and Nick's is Thursday. She had a bowling/slumber party with about 8 of her friends. It was a good time watching them goof around and be silly. Giggly teenage girl sounds are pleasant to me, and they took over the basement full force. I'm going to see a show tomorrow night with my kid and some friends, for my birthday, then at the weekend we're going to do a birthday brunch with all 3 of us for Nick and I guess all of us to celebrate and close it all out. It's been a nice diversion. The weather is shaping out to be nice for the rest of the week, may even have some sun and warm, nearly hot, days coming up. I am looking forward to that.
In the meantime, I will wait a bit longer and then I guess start applying again to nursing homes, maybe temp agencies. And then if nothing pans, I will seriously consider getting Texas BON to endorse my license and start looking down there :p I just want to work and start earning money again before my loans ALL come due and shit starts to circle the drain.