Focus on me
I am just recovering from about 5 days of some real pain. An infection in my mouth that affected my whole body. I could not put Dunk's needs, the dogs needs or any ones needs ahead of mine. It is rare that I ignore what others need. I was just in too much pain. A constant painful throbbing and adding to that severe headaches and sleeplessness made it impossible to keep my head up without support.
Strange how your tooth can bring you so far down.
Even though I have been trying to see to my own needs more, I realize how much other people rely on me for their neediness -vs- how much I take care of myself. I am not winning at this ratio. I think it might be all about keeping the peace. Well, I am thinking "to hell" with peace.
That doesn't sound right. Maybe it's more like, I don't care if you are angry with me, I "need" too!
I made a decision this morning. I am sort of hoping that a miracle doesn't happen and D clean up her dishes from the other night while I am at work this morning because I am going to ask her to clean up the kitchen. My usual M.O. is to expect her to clean the kitchen. Have a asked her specifically or just generally? I believe I have been pretty general in my complaining. Today I plan to be specific. You would have thought she could have figured it all out on her own and stepped forward and done the job while I was sick in bed, but NO, that did not happen. So time for me to take a new approach. One that does not worry about her feelings. Heavens, she is barely talking to me now. What's the worse that can happen.... they move out sooner.... Oh wait, that is definitely not the worst than can happen.
Love those grand babies though, even if the pitch of those little voices made my head throb more.
Strange how your tooth can bring you so far down.
Even though I have been trying to see to my own needs more, I realize how much other people rely on me for their neediness -vs- how much I take care of myself. I am not winning at this ratio. I think it might be all about keeping the peace. Well, I am thinking "to hell" with peace.
That doesn't sound right. Maybe it's more like, I don't care if you are angry with me, I "need" too!
I made a decision this morning. I am sort of hoping that a miracle doesn't happen and D clean up her dishes from the other night while I am at work this morning because I am going to ask her to clean up the kitchen. My usual M.O. is to expect her to clean the kitchen. Have a asked her specifically or just generally? I believe I have been pretty general in my complaining. Today I plan to be specific. You would have thought she could have figured it all out on her own and stepped forward and done the job while I was sick in bed, but NO, that did not happen. So time for me to take a new approach. One that does not worry about her feelings. Heavens, she is barely talking to me now. What's the worse that can happen.... they move out sooner.... Oh wait, that is definitely not the worst than can happen.
Love those grand babies though, even if the pitch of those little voices made my head throb more.