Second day Des Moines subbing
I just realized how crazy it is that I am still updating this stupid thing. It's not stupid actually - it's liberating. So today was my second day subbing - at Carver Elementary. Oh man, what a doozie. I know I am just the sub so I don't get to establish a set of clear expectations and ways of doing things, and that since I am a sub that I will be tested, but boy did those kids test me. I don't even know how to explain the craziness. The kids just didn't respect or listen, and the only way that I could get their attention was to threaten to take away recess. I didn't feel any connection to the kids, and they didn't even seem to care about what was being taught. It didn't help that the material was SO DRY and seemed to not engage or made them think at all. I am very excited though to get into the swing of things, and I saw that I can be a quesi hard ass when I need to. It's amazing to thing of how far I've come from not knowing how to interact or be in charge of a class, to being unfazed by the antics of disrespect, uncaring students.
In other news, I am still digging in deeper and deeper into spirituality. I so DESPERATLY want to know how it is that people can heal themselves and/or feel so close to a higher power. I am disappointed that one of the books that I bought is full of new agey stuff. It bothers me the most because it was written by someone who claimed that he worked at the Mayo Clinic. What I wanted in essence was a book that could connect scientific information and data to some religious theory of claims. Oh well, shouldn't be surprised. Feeling pretty good overall though, although a bit nostalgic. I think it is because I realize that my life is forever changed and am romancing the past.
In other news, I am still digging in deeper and deeper into spirituality. I so DESPERATLY want to know how it is that people can heal themselves and/or feel so close to a higher power. I am disappointed that one of the books that I bought is full of new agey stuff. It bothers me the most because it was written by someone who claimed that he worked at the Mayo Clinic. What I wanted in essence was a book that could connect scientific information and data to some religious theory of claims. Oh well, shouldn't be surprised. Feeling pretty good overall though, although a bit nostalgic. I think it is because I realize that my life is forever changed and am romancing the past.