ER Visits -Twice in One Week?!
Here is my in-depth rambling about what's ACTUALLY been going on. And I know even now that I'll have forgotten some things while writing this.
Saturday night I went to ER because of severe stomach pain and nausea. I've been having trouble on and off since the end of June. I haven't gone to a doctor or anything yet because I don't have insurance. Last year when I tried applying for Medicaid, my rejection letter said "you aren't pregnant, and you aren't mentally retarded. You don't qualify."
Tuesday night, I was unable to sleep at ALL. I was so exhausted and just "blah" feeling Tuesday with that awful heat wave, and then come that night, I wanted to go to bed early but just couldn't sleep. I got a bit of sleep sometime after 5am, but I kept getting up (not waking, just getting up cos I wasn't asleep) almost every hour throughout the night. When I did get up/wake up/whatever on Wednesday morning for work, I felt sick to my stomach and was unable to eat more than two small bites of a chewy oatmeal bar before work. :(
Yesterday (Wednesday) I was working (I work at Jo-Ann's in Taylor), and just after 12:30, I started feeling really ill. Lightheaded, dizzy, so I told my trainer (it was my first actual day of working) that I didn't feel well and she told me to go to the break room. I know I looked at my watch, intending to return in 10 minutes, but I can't remember what time it was. I wasn't even halfway through the store when everything started going fuzzy white and I felt extremely lightheaded (worse than when I was up front). I knelt down, hoping that putting my head near my knees would help (as a PE teacher suggested before), but it didn't. My boss, Susan, saw me and asked what was wrong. She asked if I could make it to the classroom area (like, two isles up) to sit in a chair. I got about five steps when everything went from white to grey to black, and I laid down on the floor knowing that I was close to passing out; I didn't want to fall and hit my head. I'm not sure how long I was there as I sort of floated on the edge of consciousness, then a customer was tapping my shoulder asking if I was okay. I said "I need to get to the chairs" but she told me to stay down. Someone else ran to get Susan, and they helped me to a chair. But sitting there, while they were trying to ask me questions, all sound got really really muffled. Like, trying to listen through cotton or something. I slid down a bit in the chair and Susan said that my skin looked sort of yellow-ish. They laid me on the floor and Susan went to call for an ambulance. One of the ladies who was there said she's a registered nurse, and asked to take my pulse. She said it was in the 40s and that it seemed like my heart was skipping a few beats. I felt like I was going to get sick, but never did. Eventually the EMTs arrived and they monitored my pulse and blood pressure. Apparently it spiked when I stood up, so they wanted me to get checked out to make sure I didn't have a heart condition.
In ER, they did an EKG and monitored my heart. Took blood, did urine tests (the usual). In the end, the doctor said he saw nothing wrong, and they discharged me. When i tried telling him about the nurse who'd said my pulse was way low, and that my heart was skipping a beat, he pretty much didn't listen to me and said "well, our machines are more reliable." and he also said that "nothing can medically help you" about my stomach pains (which I'm still having).
While I was in the UK, I had a very strange cold feeling in my chest and like, a feeling of downright fear. Alex's mum said I looked a bit pale. I was so afraid all that night, it took me a long time to fall asleep because I was so scared of not waking up.
(Like, even now, what if? What if I DIDN'T wake up from that night? What if I'm actually in a coma and am in a hospital in the UK somewhere?)
I've had the cold feeling a few times since returning home, too. I also get this like, feeling of fear almost about going to sleep. I don't know why. I just get this odd feeling in my chest that I can't quite explain.
I have also developed a strange thing where I can't watch anything gorey now. Or watch people eating. If I do, I feel sick. I guess, that doesn't seem to strange for the gore part since a LOT of people feel sick from it, but being me... this isn't normal.
I also get nausea a lot. Especially at night; like, I feel like I'm gonna throw up, but I never do. I genuinely can't remember the last time I actually got sick to my stomach, but it still feels like I'm gonna. I've gotten dry heaves.
Last night I was getting them; and I was spitting saliva out a lot, and I thought that I'd spat out a bit of blood but mom's convinced that it was just the red poweraid I've been drinking and that it had just mixed with something to make it darker. I'd like to believe her, but I really just can't...
Tomorrow (Friday) I'm going to DHS to apply for medicaid. I'm really really hoping that I can get something. I desperately NEED medicaid so I can go to the doctors and find out what's wrong and get it taken care of. I can't afford medical insurance myself. I can barely afford the $75/mo I pay for the stupid dental bill. :( I just don't know what to do anymore.
Saturday night I went to ER because of severe stomach pain and nausea. I've been having trouble on and off since the end of June. I haven't gone to a doctor or anything yet because I don't have insurance. Last year when I tried applying for Medicaid, my rejection letter said "you aren't pregnant, and you aren't mentally retarded. You don't qualify."
Tuesday night, I was unable to sleep at ALL. I was so exhausted and just "blah" feeling Tuesday with that awful heat wave, and then come that night, I wanted to go to bed early but just couldn't sleep. I got a bit of sleep sometime after 5am, but I kept getting up (not waking, just getting up cos I wasn't asleep) almost every hour throughout the night. When I did get up/wake up/whatever on Wednesday morning for work, I felt sick to my stomach and was unable to eat more than two small bites of a chewy oatmeal bar before work. :(
Yesterday (Wednesday) I was working (I work at Jo-Ann's in Taylor), and just after 12:30, I started feeling really ill. Lightheaded, dizzy, so I told my trainer (it was my first actual day of working) that I didn't feel well and she told me to go to the break room. I know I looked at my watch, intending to return in 10 minutes, but I can't remember what time it was. I wasn't even halfway through the store when everything started going fuzzy white and I felt extremely lightheaded (worse than when I was up front). I knelt down, hoping that putting my head near my knees would help (as a PE teacher suggested before), but it didn't. My boss, Susan, saw me and asked what was wrong. She asked if I could make it to the classroom area (like, two isles up) to sit in a chair. I got about five steps when everything went from white to grey to black, and I laid down on the floor knowing that I was close to passing out; I didn't want to fall and hit my head. I'm not sure how long I was there as I sort of floated on the edge of consciousness, then a customer was tapping my shoulder asking if I was okay. I said "I need to get to the chairs" but she told me to stay down. Someone else ran to get Susan, and they helped me to a chair. But sitting there, while they were trying to ask me questions, all sound got really really muffled. Like, trying to listen through cotton or something. I slid down a bit in the chair and Susan said that my skin looked sort of yellow-ish. They laid me on the floor and Susan went to call for an ambulance. One of the ladies who was there said she's a registered nurse, and asked to take my pulse. She said it was in the 40s and that it seemed like my heart was skipping a few beats. I felt like I was going to get sick, but never did. Eventually the EMTs arrived and they monitored my pulse and blood pressure. Apparently it spiked when I stood up, so they wanted me to get checked out to make sure I didn't have a heart condition.
In ER, they did an EKG and monitored my heart. Took blood, did urine tests (the usual). In the end, the doctor said he saw nothing wrong, and they discharged me. When i tried telling him about the nurse who'd said my pulse was way low, and that my heart was skipping a beat, he pretty much didn't listen to me and said "well, our machines are more reliable." and he also said that "nothing can medically help you" about my stomach pains (which I'm still having).
While I was in the UK, I had a very strange cold feeling in my chest and like, a feeling of downright fear. Alex's mum said I looked a bit pale. I was so afraid all that night, it took me a long time to fall asleep because I was so scared of not waking up.
(Like, even now, what if? What if I DIDN'T wake up from that night? What if I'm actually in a coma and am in a hospital in the UK somewhere?)
I've had the cold feeling a few times since returning home, too. I also get this like, feeling of fear almost about going to sleep. I don't know why. I just get this odd feeling in my chest that I can't quite explain.
I have also developed a strange thing where I can't watch anything gorey now. Or watch people eating. If I do, I feel sick. I guess, that doesn't seem to strange for the gore part since a LOT of people feel sick from it, but being me... this isn't normal.
I also get nausea a lot. Especially at night; like, I feel like I'm gonna throw up, but I never do. I genuinely can't remember the last time I actually got sick to my stomach, but it still feels like I'm gonna. I've gotten dry heaves.
Last night I was getting them; and I was spitting saliva out a lot, and I thought that I'd spat out a bit of blood but mom's convinced that it was just the red poweraid I've been drinking and that it had just mixed with something to make it darker. I'd like to believe her, but I really just can't...
Tomorrow (Friday) I'm going to DHS to apply for medicaid. I'm really really hoping that I can get something. I desperately NEED medicaid so I can go to the doctors and find out what's wrong and get it taken care of. I can't afford medical insurance myself. I can barely afford the $75/mo I pay for the stupid dental bill. :( I just don't know what to do anymore.