someway, somehow, someone musta kicked you around some...
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DAY OF ANGST COMPLETE
Watched some kind of cheesy gay movie on the gay channel about gayness XD Called Latter Saints, and I only cried like 5 times. Ridiculous, telling myself to man up and all that shit XD
And then I saw a preview for I Love You Phillip Morris and couldn't stop screaming, till I cried AGAIN XDDD But it's not even playing here, in the land of fucking homophobia. Brilllllliant.
I dunno, ever since La Cage Aux Folles, I can't get this idea of stupid sexuality discrimination outta my mind, it's KILLING me. To the point where I almost take it personally. NOT A LESBO not that there's anything wrong with that but God, I dunno. It just kills me.
I finally went to Quaker Meeting for this first time in forever yesterday. It's an hour of prayer in silence, basically. And that topic kept coming past my mind. Which is odd, cuz I rarely have any religious thoughts.
But all this CRAP about God hating gays... God loves heterosexual serial killers. He loves rapists and ax murderers and CANCER for chrissake, since he gives it to all the most wonderful people. AND YET HE HATES HOMOSEXUALS. WHUT THE FFFFFFFFFFFUCK?!
*breathes* XD
Ugh, I dunno, school's shitty. My grades are going down again, and my effort is like zero atm. I'm not motivated, but I'm not even concerned with not being motivated. And FUCKING SAT CLASSES are starting after break, which means I'll need to take a hiatus from life because twice a fucking week, I'll be at my school for 12+ hours! 8D
I need a social life. My friends are.... not friends. And the ones that are will soon be gone. Literally. And yet I'm not even upset, I'm posting all this matter-of-factly. Like there's nothing wrong and the whole world's a jolly whirlpool of happy-go-lucky whimsy. :D yayyyyz
Guess I'm back to being comfortably numb. ahh well XD *hugs life*
EDIT: Had a crazy awesome cello lesson and my dad and I sang "Dance to the Moose-shit" the drive back (while the radio played "Dance To The Music") Cracked humor = best kind :P So yeah, ignore the blabbings ^^^ XD