Not happy
I'm in such a horrible mood. Last night was not fun. I had a good time up until people started being assholes. Whatever. I'm so aggrivated, really. I can't write about it in here, because I will most likely say things I regret because I'm so furious still... Last night when I got home I was so upset. I went to sev and got hot chocolate because that would make me happy, well I dropped the straw adn tried drinking it out of the side of the cup but it slit open my lip and I was then bleeding and I burned myself because it was too hot. That wasn't why I was upset/angry/sad but it didn't help. I went in my sisters room and just started complaining really bad. She listened, it helped. I just wanted to scream, or yell or punch something. I wanted to just drive and not worry about where I was going, but I had no where to drive. I'm tired of feeling like I have no one, or nothing. I'm so independent that I no longer have anyone to "lean on" when I had nights like last night. Ugh, it was so horrible. Lots of tears. I wrote some good poetry. That was an accomplishment. It's always so easy to write when you're furious. Really is. It was some good stuff too. Ugh, I can't write in this thing. I'm so pissed off.
I wish I had someone to cry too...
I wish I had someone to cry too...