Twins, Friendships, and the Norm.

[crystalineskier]

I guess right now i just feel quite weird about my life. Being a twin is abnormally hard, and i really doubt anyone can understand that doesn't wake up and see themselves, not in the mirror, but standing 10 feet away. It's like i've got another me starting at me in the face, talking to the same people as me, having the same friends as i have...it

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my 2 cents

[nato64]

There is only a short number of things I can add to Lia's comment. I think that calling both you and your brother the same person is an immensely cruel thing. And I have told that to the one person that I know who does that.

But Jon, I have to agree with you. I have never felt like I have known the real you. I have wanted to and I just don't know who you are sometimes. I know you are deeper than the horny-teenager mask. If you put on that mask just to feel accepted, let me tell you here and now, you'll be for more accepted if you acted like yourself. I'm not saying that we don't like the way you act. It's quite funny actually. It's just that can't be all that is to your personallity. But if people don't accept you for who you are, then those people should have never been your friends in the first place. Trust me, I know a lot about this. I will always be your fiends no matter what. Remember that

Re: my 2 cents

[nato64]

holy shit that is a long comment. sorry!!!

Oh hun i have a lot to say so sit down

[lia_yums]

No you don't wish your life was dramatic. When things like the fact that your dad doesn't love you comes up, it's not nice...he's not my biological father, i don't think you know that but now you do. I just found this out two months ago, and it's been hell maybe that's why i act the way i do-because i'm scared, alone and confused. All my life i’ve strove for something i could never have, and so now that i know that what am i supposed to do? See. I don't know how i'm supposed to act, so i do whatever i think is best at the moment. The thing is hun i love you more then life itself. I think i get you a little more then most people, and the thing is i've tried to understand you, i really have. It's not that you're normal and people dismiss you. You are just happy and i don't think people connect with you because they aren't normal and so we (i too) don't know how to connect with you because i feel like i annoy you or like i would bring you down with my crap. Us messed up people-we feed off each other. It's sad but true. Most of the time

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[nato64]

ok - what did you change?

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[lia_yums]

haha nothing sorry i accidentally deleted it

[mstrkingdom]

Yeah....I'd like to put into plainer terms what Nathan and Lia have both said....that little fucker who calls you Jonick is a real bastard

[nato64]

Kris, it doesn't matter if your the best person to talk to about advice or not, it's the fact that your trying. Which shows that you care. And that is the main thing when someone is giving advice to another person. Showing you care is a very powerful force in the world and many people don't understand how much of an impact that a small comment like "Well you know I care about you," has on someone.

Thanks...i got thinkin' to do.

[crystalineskier]

I think I’ve got to think about my life, and really what I’ve felt inside…but first I have to thank each of you for your words, be them advice, caring thoughts, or just help…I cried for the first time in about a whole year…and if there was any question to any of you if I would not understand, or listen, if you opened up to me, please let me tell you that that is not the case. I guess I’ve not opened up to people, and they’ve felt that there’s no reason to open up either. I feel like I know each one of you so well, yet only on scratching the surface…maybe I just don’t know how to start deep conversations. I’m going to address each of you personally, there’s too much information to do everyone at once

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[lia_yums]

yeah we'll go out sometime babe, just name a day

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[nato64]

same with me dude; name a day and we'll talk. i'd be willing to take the first step and tell you about me if you want. it's a bigger risk than you could understand right now but i'm willing to take it for you. like i said, you need someone to help you with that 'soul-searching.' at least i did. and i'm willing to be here for you and i'd love to get to know you better.

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[mstrkingdom]

Jon, all your words, everything you say, expresses the things that I couldn't and can't. This whole post is practically the same thing I would say if I knew the words to; if I could find a way to express the emotions.

No, we didn't talk enough in Cali, and that's probably a little of both ouf faults. Mine because I didn't know you, and didn't think we had anything to talk about....a little ignorance there, I guess. The trying to live in shadows remark was more of a comment about myself than you....I don't know if it applies to you, or if it's the point you were trying to get across.

And crying, well, I find the tears coming every time I find myself posting something meaningful here, or even thinking about my life, for that matter. Sometimes it hurts.
--Kris--

[pocketrocket_05]

What is important? Skiing is important. And when people ask me who i'm going up with, even if i'm going up alone, you know what i tell em? I tell em Jon. Why? Because skiing with you is the most powerful spiritual experience in my life - it is impossible for anyone who has not had that experience to know. On the hill, our souls are free to roam, and nothing can ever duplicate the brotherhood and wild abandon i feel when our souls dance lines down the powder together. NOBODY else can come close to matching those moments, jon, not nick, not anyone else. When we ski, man, just the two of us goin big at crystal on a pow day, that guy who looks like you doesn't even exist. That's not to say i don't like to ski with him, but with you it's different, and so much more powerful and meaningful, do you know what i'm sayin bro? Do you remember the good times? The three of us have a good time, no doubt, but the two of us have a time of invincible companionship that i can never forget. You are irreplacably individual. You are my ski buddy.