i always hurt

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 LEAH STOP

if you visit my live journel please dont read this i dont want you to cry i dont like to see the one person i love cry because of me  i know you will probly read this any way but dont take any of this as your fault or me not loving you or wanting to leave you or you to think you need to leave me to change any thing but if you do

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Deirdre loves Devon!

[anonymous]

Devon, I love you so much, and I am so so sorry. The next time I see you I'm going to hug you forever and a day. I didn't know that much, probably because you didn't want me to know. I'm selfish, so you can't take yourself away from me because I would be so sad without my Devon. You're such a sweet guy and I love the way you do things; you always seem so relaxed and like you know what to do and what's going on. You're wise beyond your years, but you have so much ahead of you. You need to let yourself enjoy your years of freedom and fun. I hate that you feel this way, and I wish that I could somehow ease your pain. You mean a lot to me because you're there for me always. And, if I'm a bitch, it's only because I'm a bitch, and I still love you so much. The first time I met you, I thought you were the sweetest guy; you didn't even know me, but you let me take a shower in your house and you helped me with my earrings; I had never met a greater host. Please, Devon, if you ever need or want to talk, I am always here for you. I may not have

Re: Deirdre loves Devon!

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aw thanks kid i love you too and no your not a bitch i know real bitches (i dont mean leah) and i can guarentee you would agree
but thanks if i need to talk ill keep you in mind
see you later
devon

[anonymous]

Devon, it's Deirdre again. I've thought a little bit more about your journal. I just can't believe that someone could treat a person like you so badly. It's a crime against nature, and I wish I had met you sooner so I could have been there for you. You were right: it did make me sick. It's horrible to think that things like that can go on at all, and to you, the sweetest person ever. Please stay with us. I think I understand about cutting, because it makes me feel better too. The power of it can be overwhelming. Keep faith in yourself, because I do. Life sucks fucking ass, but that doesn't mean we can't say screw life and have some fun. Leah loves you and you have to be there for her. Think of it this way: the world has to have some balance, so for every bad thing that happens, something good has to happen. So, the way I figure, you're going to have one Hell of a decade plus coming up. If you ever need me, I would even come pick you up at four in the morning because I care. You and Leah are the cutest couple ever and I want to see

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thanks kid it means alot you know im here for you two and i know youd come get me at 4am BC IM A PIMP GIRL lol thannks for caring and putting up with my stupidity
love devon

[supa_fluffer]

devon if you didn't want people to read it then why didn't you make it private?
melis

[gribblet]

yea, you could make it friends only or something. i <3 you!
don't feel sad :( ppl love you. and BAH! and my mom loves you. and my dad's scared of you. you're so ........... VOCOLOC
*COOL

[cry_as_i_cut]

dude like every one i know is afraid of me well guys any way i dont try to intimidate girls but yea love you too
peace
devonly
read the one i replied to for melissa

[cry_as_i_cut]

the only person i didnt want to read this was leah bc i had told her about it b4 the only thing she didnt know about in here was the pool thing with the bag and she gets really upset when ever she hears about how bad my life has been
how ever i didnt want every one else that knows me to read it bc they would learn something about me and understand more about me and the way i am and why i am the way i am and turned out that is the reason i put it there plus i had remembered it from talking to leah and i wanted to get it out of my head and this is a way for me to do it since i dont tell ppl my problems so yea
and can you next reply not be so negative as usual
thanks
devonly

...............im cassie and i don't think you know me.

[lilmissmisfit]

hi devon i know you probaly don't know me and i don't expect you to know me. i think you met me once or twice and ur right i do't know you and i don't know what you have been through and i wish i could help you and tel you that i care cause i do care i may not know you and everything like that been when i had known you i always thought you were great i never judged you even though i do that alot but i didn't judge you cause i had no reason to judge. well i don't know if what i think will help you in any way but yea i wanted to tell you anyway. ~cassie~