lets get one thing straight

[croonenbergh]

i wasnt attacking. i was being a little immature about it. but i had to get my point across at a level that he understands. and what i said in the previous two entries was mean. but thats the way i felt at the time. now i feel a little less like that. i dont hate him all the way. i have little respect for someone who breaks my heart. thats natural. and im not mad that he likes someone else. thats not something that you do on purpose. but there are far more mature ways to deal with those situations. im not sorry for what i said about him on myspace in that blog because thats how i knew him to be and hes not being that way to anyone else. but he has changed and i think he was trying to stay that same guy with me but getting it confused with who hes become. i dont get along with who hes become. and i like who i am now. it took me a long time to get here and im not going back to who i was in high school. i didnt like me then. so now that i have closure i feel better. im still hurting but i think im more angry than sad. and i work a lot better angry than crying. and we changed apart. we worked in high school because we were the same person then. we had the same job and liked to stay in and watch movies on the weekends. i need someone who will tell me whats on their mind when it gets there. i cant wait around for anyone anymore.

love,
steph

ps - i look forward to meeting new people. were both young and dont need to be tying each other down. especially during college.