.people change, things go wrong, shit happens, but LIFE GOES ON.
Yeah ok, it's MY turn, bitches. You know what I love? When your so-called "friends" think it's really cool to write about you in their little online journals, but of course not tell YOU that they have a problem with you. It's time to grow up. If I have a problem with someone or what they might be doing, I tell them. And they wonder why I don't come home. I'm sorry that I have REAL friends here that support my decisions and accept me for who I am. I'm sorry that I can't afford to come home because I have no free time outside of school, work, and bowling. I rarely sleep, there's no time for that. But why would I even want to come home, assuming that I have the time, when it seems like no one wants me there anyway? I don't get called to hang out, and the one time I did, I felt like I wasn't welcome there. And I really was going to come home this next weekend, but frankly, I really don't like the idea of closing on friday till 3am, driving home Saturday, then turning around to drive back for a meeting Sunday morning. That is retarded. So you know what? FUCK IT ALL. Emily told me she wanted me to be in this wedding, but apparently that has changed. So I suppose I'll just do everyone a favor and drop it, isn't that what you all want anyway? I hate to do that to Emily, because until recent posts, I thought she really did want me to be there. But apparently, things change. Which is fine. You adjust, and you adapt. And life will still go on. I just honestly, don't care anymore. I'm fed up with people writing shit on their xangas instead of coming to me about it. That's highschool immature bullshit. And I don't need it. I have more important things to worry about. Not to mention, it's not even YOUR wedding. It's Emily's. And it's Emily's decision on whether she wants me in it anymore, not yours. Although it does help me decide who I would like to put in mine now. It doesn't matter to me if the person is able to come to all the little extras, especially if I'm getting married while I'm in college and all of the people in my wedding are in college as well. And even more so if they attend a college that is farther away. In Jessica Bashem's wedding, Ruth Anne, since she lived in Florida, was only able to come to the wedding. She didn't even go to the bachelorette party. But did that matter to Jessica? Not at all. Because Ruth Anne was there for her wedding, and that's all she cared about. But apparently not everyone is as understanding as Jessica. I know I would be. And since it's my wedding, it should only be MY opinion that matters anyway. Yeah so what if everyone else doesn't think it's fair? It's not their wedding so they need to back the fuck out of it. But I guess it's a little hard to understand since none of them went away to school and got the whole college experience. Well I'm damn glad I did. Things like this only prove even more that it's the friends you make in college that count. Because people grow up in college, and are more understanding. I mean, I bowl four nights a week, I work the nights I don't bowl, and I'm taking 13 credits.. what more do you want me to do? Yeah, I get it, I'm not wanted in the wedding anymore. But it'd be just a little considerate if someone told ME that. I love being the last to know, especially when it concerns me. Rockin awesome. And I can't wait to see all the kickass anonymous comments I'm going to get. Please, I need a good laugh.