Letting you go-07
Title: Letting you go-07/??
Author: cream4me
Genre: angst, male/male
Band(s): the GazettE, Dir en grey
Pairing: Reita x Hiromi, Reita x Kai(friendship)
Overall Rating: PG-13
Disclaimer: They are real people too, or at least that’s what my therapists says. So no I guess I only own them in my mind
Summary: Reita breaks up with Ruki for his ex lover (who cheated on him) leaving Ruki heartbroken and slightly depressed. Determined to move on with his life, Ruki goes out clubbing but catches the attention of someone he was trying to the most to forget.
Warning: Strong language, homosexual relationships
chapter seven
Reita's POV
All I can think about is Ruki. Is he and Kyo dating now? After all that shit they went through and he hooks up with him? And I mean yea I did the same with Hiromi but we're just fucking now. I came back cuz Kai called and said the manger wanted to see all us and since I was right there I thought I'd just pass along the message. I don't why I got mad but after I left I called Kai and told him Ruki couldn't make it. I should have let him get him in trouble. I got back in the car and Hiromi asked me what was wrong but I wasn't paying her any attention.
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All through the meeting I kept thinking about them and the more I did, the more I got pissed and the more I got more pissed off the more confused I got. I don't know why I'm getting so mad for. I'm not in love with Ruki anymore. All I want to do is go home right now. This meeting is stupid. No one is even paying attention except Kai...nerd.
"Hey dude. What's wrong with you?"
"Huh?" I said looking at him. It was Uruha. What the fuck does he want? Can't he see I want to brood in peace.
"You've been in a shitty mood since you showed up." he said.
"It's nothing.
"Alright guys you can leave now." said Kai. "It's not like you were listening in the first place." We all got up and left and once I got back in the car I started thinking about them. But I don't know why. I guess it’s because I'm not use to the idea of Ruki being with someone other than me....I don't know. It's just weird. I mean I know he said he moved on but I didn't believe him. When he and Kyo broke up, we didn't start dating until 2yrs after that. Saying he wasn't ready for a serious relationship. So seeing them together and hearing him call him by his nickname kinda throws me off cuz if it took you 2yrs to get over this guy...why has it only taken a couple of months for you to get over me? Ya know what I mean? Like, did you really love me or were you just saying that.
I know I'm being stupid right now but I can't help it. Ruki deserves better than Kyo and I know that. It might not be me but it sure as hell ain’t Kyo.
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After I left I dropped Hiromi off at her house and went back home. I was about to go to sleep but then Aoi called me and asked if I wanted to hang out and go out to a club or something. I wasn't really in the mood to sit there miserable listening to a drunk Uruha and Aoi trying to rape him so I said no and got in my bed and now I wish I didn't. The sheets smell like Hiromi. Don't get me wrong sex with her is good but its not Ruki......Did I really fucking say that? Speaking of the little midget, since when does Ruki and Kyo start talking again? I thought they hated each other and now they’re fucking? Like wft! After all that shit Kyo put him through and he goes back to it. He's a fucking idiot. If something happens between them this time I won't be there as the shoulder to cry on.
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This is stupid...I'm acting like a high school kid. Ruki can fuck whoever he wants now. Hiromi came over again. Fucking go home...we are no longer in a relationship so there is no need for you to be over here 24/7.
"Reita what the hell is your problem? Ever since you came back from Ruki's you've been acting like a dick." she said.
"It has noting to do with you..."
"Well your my friend and I want to know...Did something happen when you went back up there?" I could tell she was actually concerned which was strange cuz her and Ruki sorta have the same traits. They don't care about other peoples feelings until it affects them. Ruki isn't as bad as her though. He cares more than he lets on that's why I lo---
"Nothing happen. Really so don't worry about it." She rolled her eyes and walked back to the kitchen.
"Whatever Rei. Any...what do you want to eat? I'm about to leave."
"Why?" She poked her head out the door.
"I have a date. I have to go home and get ready." It didn't take long for her to bounce back.
"You can go ahead. I'm not really hungry." As soon as I said she was running out the door.
"Thanks Rei....I was gonna be late." I swear she could have outran the Flash...in 7in stilettos
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.......I am bored out of my mind. It's 4:14 in the freakin morning and I know I should be sleep but I can't. This time it has nothing to do with Ruki, it actually has to do with Hiromi. I sorta mad she has a date. I feel like yesterday’s news. I want to know who this guy she went out on a date with. I don't know why I care though. I never liked her like that...I mean I use to but that was a long time ago. I wonder what Ruki is doing? That’s sounds kinda creepy....I'm just gonna go to sleep now....try to anyway. Kai is going to kick my ass if I come into practice tired like last time. I've seen what he's done to Uruha and I do NOT want to be on the receiving end of that drumstick....the very thought makes me shudder.
Anyway.....I'm bored. I should be practicing my bass but fuck it....Kai can suck my dick....management too. I don't feel like doing anything. So when I went in my room to go to sleep Hiromi called me and said she needed to be picked up. Her date had a family emergency and had to leave right away. I got dressed and when I pulled up to the building I thought I pulled up to the wrong. It was a lesbian bar. I'm about to call her but then she got in the car.
"Sorry about calling you so late but I live on the other side of town and the buses aren't running this late."
"Hiromi? Why are you at a lesbian club?"
"Uh for my date? Duh."
"You’re gay?"
"No...I'm bi but I prefer women." Is this why she didn't care that much about me? I think I was used...I'm not sure though. This seems to be happening a lot lately. I didn't bother saying anything back so I just drove off. She was babbling about something.....I'm not really sure. People are really conniving these days.
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So after I dropped her off at her house and FINALLY made it back home, and was finally tired enough to go to sleep. And like a bitch, Kai called me and told me we had practice early......6:30........Are you fucking kidding me?!?! I looked at the clock on my phone and I swear I wanted to cry. It was jut hitting on 6. It was like being in high school all over again. You know? When you KNOW you have to be up in a hour and your trying to go to sleep but can't or you're finally able to go to sleep but then the alarm goes off? I fucking hate it....
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When I got there, it was just Kai......I swear he goes to bed at 7, he didn't even lok remotely tired......I was about to cuss the hell out of Kai but I remembered we had to finish recording and the only parts left to recored were me and Kai. Okay Rei.....you can start whenever your ready." said Kai. I wanted to get it all in one go so I really concentrated and when I was gone Kai played it back and it was perfect.....I deserve a pat on the back. I waited for him to finish his part to make sure he made he home okay or whatever and right when we're about to leave he pulls me back into the studio.
"Rei? Are you okay?" he ask.
"Uh....yea? Nothings wrong with me."
"Are you sure? Ever since that day at Ruki's you've been acting really strange. Did something happen?"
"No not really." He gave me that look that said 'Yeah the hell right.' Well at least he didn't say anything. I really don't like being lectured, especially when I'm so fucking tired.
"Okay Rei....well go home and get some rest. Later I want everybody over for dinner, you can bring a date if you want." Great......Kai's cooking. I don't really want to go not because of his cooking but cuz Ruki's going to be there and I know he'll bring Kyo.....if he can convice him which he has never had a problem with...Uuugghhh fuck....ing kill me already!! This is so fucking stupid! Why the fuck do I care so much about them any fucking way?! I broke up with his ass. Fuck this....from now on I don't give a shit about Ruki and Kyo. They can do whatever the fuck they want.
Author: cream4me
Genre: angst, male/male
Band(s): the GazettE, Dir en grey
Pairing: Reita x Hiromi, Reita x Kai(friendship)
Overall Rating: PG-13
Disclaimer: They are real people too, or at least that’s what my therapists says. So no I guess I only own them in my mind
Summary: Reita breaks up with Ruki for his ex lover (who cheated on him) leaving Ruki heartbroken and slightly depressed. Determined to move on with his life, Ruki goes out clubbing but catches the attention of someone he was trying to the most to forget.
Warning: Strong language, homosexual relationships
chapter seven
Reita's POV
All I can think about is Ruki. Is he and Kyo dating now? After all that shit they went through and he hooks up with him? And I mean yea I did the same with Hiromi but we're just fucking now. I came back cuz Kai called and said the manger wanted to see all us and since I was right there I thought I'd just pass along the message. I don't why I got mad but after I left I called Kai and told him Ruki couldn't make it. I should have let him get him in trouble. I got back in the car and Hiromi asked me what was wrong but I wasn't paying her any attention.
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All through the meeting I kept thinking about them and the more I did, the more I got pissed and the more I got more pissed off the more confused I got. I don't know why I'm getting so mad for. I'm not in love with Ruki anymore. All I want to do is go home right now. This meeting is stupid. No one is even paying attention except Kai...nerd.
"Hey dude. What's wrong with you?"
"Huh?" I said looking at him. It was Uruha. What the fuck does he want? Can't he see I want to brood in peace.
"You've been in a shitty mood since you showed up." he said.
"It's nothing.
"Alright guys you can leave now." said Kai. "It's not like you were listening in the first place." We all got up and left and once I got back in the car I started thinking about them. But I don't know why. I guess it’s because I'm not use to the idea of Ruki being with someone other than me....I don't know. It's just weird. I mean I know he said he moved on but I didn't believe him. When he and Kyo broke up, we didn't start dating until 2yrs after that. Saying he wasn't ready for a serious relationship. So seeing them together and hearing him call him by his nickname kinda throws me off cuz if it took you 2yrs to get over this guy...why has it only taken a couple of months for you to get over me? Ya know what I mean? Like, did you really love me or were you just saying that.
I know I'm being stupid right now but I can't help it. Ruki deserves better than Kyo and I know that. It might not be me but it sure as hell ain’t Kyo.
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After I left I dropped Hiromi off at her house and went back home. I was about to go to sleep but then Aoi called me and asked if I wanted to hang out and go out to a club or something. I wasn't really in the mood to sit there miserable listening to a drunk Uruha and Aoi trying to rape him so I said no and got in my bed and now I wish I didn't. The sheets smell like Hiromi. Don't get me wrong sex with her is good but its not Ruki......Did I really fucking say that? Speaking of the little midget, since when does Ruki and Kyo start talking again? I thought they hated each other and now they’re fucking? Like wft! After all that shit Kyo put him through and he goes back to it. He's a fucking idiot. If something happens between them this time I won't be there as the shoulder to cry on.
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This is stupid...I'm acting like a high school kid. Ruki can fuck whoever he wants now. Hiromi came over again. Fucking go home...we are no longer in a relationship so there is no need for you to be over here 24/7.
"Reita what the hell is your problem? Ever since you came back from Ruki's you've been acting like a dick." she said.
"It has noting to do with you..."
"Well your my friend and I want to know...Did something happen when you went back up there?" I could tell she was actually concerned which was strange cuz her and Ruki sorta have the same traits. They don't care about other peoples feelings until it affects them. Ruki isn't as bad as her though. He cares more than he lets on that's why I lo---
"Nothing happen. Really so don't worry about it." She rolled her eyes and walked back to the kitchen.
"Whatever Rei. Any...what do you want to eat? I'm about to leave."
"Why?" She poked her head out the door.
"I have a date. I have to go home and get ready." It didn't take long for her to bounce back.
"You can go ahead. I'm not really hungry." As soon as I said she was running out the door.
"Thanks Rei....I was gonna be late." I swear she could have outran the Flash...in 7in stilettos
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.......I am bored out of my mind. It's 4:14 in the freakin morning and I know I should be sleep but I can't. This time it has nothing to do with Ruki, it actually has to do with Hiromi. I sorta mad she has a date. I feel like yesterday’s news. I want to know who this guy she went out on a date with. I don't know why I care though. I never liked her like that...I mean I use to but that was a long time ago. I wonder what Ruki is doing? That’s sounds kinda creepy....I'm just gonna go to sleep now....try to anyway. Kai is going to kick my ass if I come into practice tired like last time. I've seen what he's done to Uruha and I do NOT want to be on the receiving end of that drumstick....the very thought makes me shudder.
Anyway.....I'm bored. I should be practicing my bass but fuck it....Kai can suck my dick....management too. I don't feel like doing anything. So when I went in my room to go to sleep Hiromi called me and said she needed to be picked up. Her date had a family emergency and had to leave right away. I got dressed and when I pulled up to the building I thought I pulled up to the wrong. It was a lesbian bar. I'm about to call her but then she got in the car.
"Sorry about calling you so late but I live on the other side of town and the buses aren't running this late."
"Hiromi? Why are you at a lesbian club?"
"Uh for my date? Duh."
"You’re gay?"
"No...I'm bi but I prefer women." Is this why she didn't care that much about me? I think I was used...I'm not sure though. This seems to be happening a lot lately. I didn't bother saying anything back so I just drove off. She was babbling about something.....I'm not really sure. People are really conniving these days.
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So after I dropped her off at her house and FINALLY made it back home, and was finally tired enough to go to sleep. And like a bitch, Kai called me and told me we had practice early......6:30........Are you fucking kidding me?!?! I looked at the clock on my phone and I swear I wanted to cry. It was jut hitting on 6. It was like being in high school all over again. You know? When you KNOW you have to be up in a hour and your trying to go to sleep but can't or you're finally able to go to sleep but then the alarm goes off? I fucking hate it....
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When I got there, it was just Kai......I swear he goes to bed at 7, he didn't even lok remotely tired......I was about to cuss the hell out of Kai but I remembered we had to finish recording and the only parts left to recored were me and Kai. Okay Rei.....you can start whenever your ready." said Kai. I wanted to get it all in one go so I really concentrated and when I was gone Kai played it back and it was perfect.....I deserve a pat on the back. I waited for him to finish his part to make sure he made he home okay or whatever and right when we're about to leave he pulls me back into the studio.
"Rei? Are you okay?" he ask.
"Uh....yea? Nothings wrong with me."
"Are you sure? Ever since that day at Ruki's you've been acting really strange. Did something happen?"
"No not really." He gave me that look that said 'Yeah the hell right.' Well at least he didn't say anything. I really don't like being lectured, especially when I'm so fucking tired.
"Okay Rei....well go home and get some rest. Later I want everybody over for dinner, you can bring a date if you want." Great......Kai's cooking. I don't really want to go not because of his cooking but cuz Ruki's going to be there and I know he'll bring Kyo.....if he can convice him which he has never had a problem with...Uuugghhh fuck....ing kill me already!! This is so fucking stupid! Why the fuck do I care so much about them any fucking way?! I broke up with his ass. Fuck this....from now on I don't give a shit about Ruki and Kyo. They can do whatever the fuck they want.