Letting you go-08
Title: Letting you go-08/??
Author: cream4me
Genre: angst, male/male
Band(s): the GazettE, Dir en grey
Pairing: Kyo x Ruki, Reita x Ruki
Overall Rating: PG-13
Disclaimer: They are real people too, or at least that’s what my therapists says. So no I guess I only own them in my mind
Summary: Reita breaks up with Ruki for his ex lover (who cheated on him) leaving Ruki heartbroken and slightly depressed. Determined to move on with his life, Ruki goes out clubbing but catches the attention of someone he was trying to the most to forget.
Warning: Strong language, homosexual relationships
chapter eight
Ruki's POV
When I woke up Saki wasn't there and it kinda made me sad. I was hoping he would blow me again before he left....oh well. I picked up my phone and was gonna call Kai and ask him what time I had to be in but he left me a voice mail at freakin 6 in the morning saying I was done recording, Reita was the only one left and that were gonna take a small break....hehe thats what that cheating bastard gets.
So I've been thinking about Kyo the entire day. I was hoping Shinya would talk to him and he would at least call me like yell or somthing. When the phone finally didi ring it got all happy like a little bitch and it was just Kai. He was planning on a dinner date with all us or some shit. He told me I could bring a date and as soon as he hung up I started to dial Kyo's number but stopped. What if he is like super pissed at me? I really hope Shinya talked to him....I do miss him...a lot.
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"Well he isn't answering any of my calls....maybe he's sleep." said Shinya. I asked him if he tried to get a hole of him and apperntly Kyo isn't talking to anybody at the moment.
"Well did you go by his house?" Like I sound really desperate right now....we aren't even dating but I'm acting like he's cheating on me or something.
"No I didn't. Nobody....except Kaoru goes over to Kyo's unannoced. He might want to just be left alone."
"Well I don't give a damn! I need to talk to him dammit....I'm going over." Then I hung up the phone.
Please god let me live through this
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BANG BANG BANG BANG
"Kyo open the door! I know your home!" And effin hurry up too....people are staring...."Kyo! Kyo!" Some more knocking....yelling....and the occasional threat and I FINALLY hear life on the other side of the fucking door. He cracked the door a little and I could only see his eye....he didn't look like he had just woke up....but...
"What the fuck do you want?"
"I need to talk to you about the other day."
"Theres nothing to talk about. Now leave. I don't want to be bothered." Like who the fuck does he think he is? I know he better let me in this motherfucking house.
"Fucking let me in." I pushed on the door and forced my way in and I really wish I didn't. He had some bitch running around trying to get dressed. What the fuck Kyo?! And you were talking about me using you? How the fuck could he do this? AGAIN?! And this fucker has the nerve to act like nothing is happening. He yawned, scratched his head and sat down on the couch....leaving me at the front door with my mouth wide open. Whoever the girl was had left by now telling Kyo to call her later and he was still sitting there ignoreing me watching TV.
"Kyo what the fuck was all that?!" He looked at me and back to the TV.
"They are called females Ruki." he said. Asshole.
"No you stupid fuck....what the fuck was she doing here?" He laughed.
"What do ya think Ruki..." he said sarcassically. I swear I'm going to beat the shit out of him. "What are you getting so upset for Ruki? It's not like we are together."
"Thats besides the fucking point...."
"Fucking shut the hell up. What do you want?" He was getting pissed off but I could care less.
"I came to tell you I was sorry. I wasn't using.....I really did miss you." He nodded his head and turned the station.
"Is that all?" It's like he wants me to wail on him, acting like he doesn't care. I hate it when he does that.
"Why are you acting like this?" I'm damn near in his face now and he has yet to get up.
"I'm not acting like anything..." he got up and got in my face. "Now get out." his voice was low and deep and it was really turning me on. Damn him. I love how he can dominate over me....not like Reita's bitch ass. Stay calm Ruki....lets not turn into a masochist whore....Riiiight, too late...
I crossed my arms over my chest.
"And if I don't..." Thats when he got real close to me, grabbed me by my fucking neck and looked me in the eye
"If you don't get the fuck out of house your bandmates might be scraping you up off my carpet......." Now I had to think....What did I do that made this asshole so mad at me.
"Fuck you Kyo...." It came out before I had a chance to think about it and I found myself slapped, thrown on the couch, being kissed like really super hard. It was kinda hot. And me being the closet whore that I am I actually started moaning. He heard me and laughed. I was about to tell him to shut up but it didn't seem important at the time cuz now he was trying to rip my jeans off....these pants cost a lot of fucking money and they happen to be my favorite pair....
Well he finally gets them off and is now taking off my shirt and his own clothes and I swear my heart dropped to my stomach. I actually forgot how big he was. I mean yea I felt it the other day but that was just enough to make me cum but this is like.....freaking....freak dude! I was pulled out of my little daydream when he grabbed me by my hair.
"Get on you fucking knees and suck me." he said harshly. I fucking love his voice...its so sexy. So like I get on the floor and just stared at it for awhile....That must have pissed him off too cuz the bastard grabbed my hair again and forced his dick in my mouth. Like fuck dude....I was getting to it.....jeez...you don't have to be so rough. I'm fragile ya know.....
He practically made me deep throat him in one go and I ALMOST choked on him...I don't know if that makes me a slut cuz I didn't...I'll ask Saki later....right now I have something more important to focus on. He pulled me back and made me do it again and it went on for like two seconds then I slapped his hand away. I hate it when they force me to suck them. I can do it myself dammit.
I went back to sucking him the way I wanted to, nipping the head, licking the vein under his cock and pushing the tip of my tounge in the slit of his cock and other things I knew would get him off. The sounds coming from him were really turning me on and my own dick wanted to join the party so I let little Ruru...thats right...I said it. I started jacking off while I sucked on him. I feel like Saki right now but I'm going to forget about that at the moment and just feel. With all the teasing I must have been doing my job right cuz he stopped me and started jerking himslef off.
Is he thinking what I think he's thinkin? And right before I can stop him or move out the way I feel parts of my face get hot and sticky. This motherfucker came on my beautiful fucking face. Does he know what that can do to my skin?!?! I'll break out dammit.....my face just clear the fuck up and now I have to deal with this. Even right now he's still pumping more out and I can feel it run down my cheek, lips, and dripping slowly onto my chest. It was very irritating. Like when you cry and the tears move down too slow and it iches you or just feels weird and you want to wipe it off.
He's coming down from his high and he looks down at me. I didn't like it. I felt like shit right now. The look he was giving me was the kinda look your parents give you when you tell them you got your girlfriend pregnant.....or in my case that I was gay. What I didn't understand was why so upset. I thought this is what he wanted...I mean he did start it. He threw his shirt at me so I could clean up and told me to get out again but the tone his was soft...weak.Why?
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I called Kai that I wasn't able to come over his little get together. He told me that Reita had called too and that he sounded alittle sad, despressed and he wanted me to go check up on him. I really really really didn't want to but he promised to make practice and future recordings hell for me and I already had to go through that once and I don't want it to happen a second time. I cleaned myself up before I went over and when I did show up all the lights were out. I was about to leave but I heard someone moving in the living room cussing. He must have hit something. I knocked on the door and I heard more cussing. It made me laugh....stupid Rei.
"What is it?"
"Rude much! I came to see if you were alright." He looked at me like Yeah the fuck right. He knew I was forced to come here and he let me in anyway.
"Why weren't you able to make it to Kai's dinner?" I asked and turned on the lights.
"I just didn't want to want to go...Shouldn't you be there too?"
I shurgged and sat on the couch. "I should but I didn't feel like it." He came over and sat next to me.
"And why is that?"
"Just didn't."
It stayed quiet for a long time and we still didn't say anything. It wasn't one of those uncomfortable akward silences but I didn't like that quiet so I said the first thing that came to my mind.
"So how are you and Hitomi?"
He scoffed and rolled his eyes.
"We decided to just be fuck buddies but then she goes and gets herself a girlfriend. Can you believe that shit?"
Hearing that I like had to laugh. Like are you fucking serious Rei? How the hell do you not notice that?! So like before we became famous and before Kyo....me and Hitomi use to be really good friends. She was such a nice sweet innocent girl who wouldn't hurt a fly. I'm still trying to pinpoint when it was she started changing but I think it has to do with when she went to college. After she dropped out she was a completly different person. She was drinking smoking, even dowing drugs. She would sleep around a lot and one night she crashed at my house and woke up with a massive headache.
Well long story short Reita and Aoi was coming over to help me move in my new couch and saw her coming out the bathroom after a shower naked and they just stared at each other. She said hey and left and went they were leaving Reita asked for her number and they had been talking since then. I tried to warn him about her but he wouldn't listen.
When we didn start getting famous and we were getting recognized, we were all going to meet up at Kai's to celebrate and I had to go get Reita. I called to see if he was home cuz I didn't want to be stuck there loookin stupid. He told me that he was on his way but Hitomi would be there to let me in but when I got there the door was already slightly cracked. I went inside and I saw a trail of clothes starting from the living room and going to the bedroom.
I thought Rei had got there before me so I was going to wait outside until they finished but she called out womens name. I'm like what the fuck?! So I go back there and she was fucking riding some chicks face and I'm like WHAT THE FUCK?! A straight man would have thought it a dream come true but I didn't care for that sort of thing. If it didn't have a dick I wasn't interested......but only people.....anyway
I told Reita it was a man cuz I knew he wouldn't believe me if I told him the truth. He'd say something about she isn't a lesbian and think I was trying to break them up which would be true but not this time. Anyway I told her that our friendship was over and that was the last time I seen her.
"It's not funny Ruki.....How would feel if Kyo was dating someone else?" he asked. I stopped laughing and got quiet.
"Well I would hope they were happy together. And besides I don't think I would care cuz we arent dating."
He looked over at me.
"I thought you were. By the way you act when I said his name and all that shit about him."
"Nope. He's mad at me for thinking I was using him to get back at you. I just left his house and some bitch was over there." I said softly.
"Ru..."
"I really did miss him Rei....I still do." I was trying really hard not to cry. I don't why I was getting so emotional for.
"Don't worry about it too much. I'm sure he didn't mean anything mean he might have said. He's just mad. You remeber how he can get."
"Yea but still....you didn't see the look on his face...."
TBC
A/N: Sorry for the long wait. My mother is being difficult again and my boyfriend has kinda moved into the house for a littlel while and won't let me go back in my room so thats way it takes so long to write up new chapters. But um yea please comment and tell me what you think.
Author: cream4me
Genre: angst, male/male
Band(s): the GazettE, Dir en grey
Pairing: Kyo x Ruki, Reita x Ruki
Overall Rating: PG-13
Disclaimer: They are real people too, or at least that’s what my therapists says. So no I guess I only own them in my mind
Summary: Reita breaks up with Ruki for his ex lover (who cheated on him) leaving Ruki heartbroken and slightly depressed. Determined to move on with his life, Ruki goes out clubbing but catches the attention of someone he was trying to the most to forget.
Warning: Strong language, homosexual relationships
chapter eight
Ruki's POV
When I woke up Saki wasn't there and it kinda made me sad. I was hoping he would blow me again before he left....oh well. I picked up my phone and was gonna call Kai and ask him what time I had to be in but he left me a voice mail at freakin 6 in the morning saying I was done recording, Reita was the only one left and that were gonna take a small break....hehe thats what that cheating bastard gets.
So I've been thinking about Kyo the entire day. I was hoping Shinya would talk to him and he would at least call me like yell or somthing. When the phone finally didi ring it got all happy like a little bitch and it was just Kai. He was planning on a dinner date with all us or some shit. He told me I could bring a date and as soon as he hung up I started to dial Kyo's number but stopped. What if he is like super pissed at me? I really hope Shinya talked to him....I do miss him...a lot.
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"Well he isn't answering any of my calls....maybe he's sleep." said Shinya. I asked him if he tried to get a hole of him and apperntly Kyo isn't talking to anybody at the moment.
"Well did you go by his house?" Like I sound really desperate right now....we aren't even dating but I'm acting like he's cheating on me or something.
"No I didn't. Nobody....except Kaoru goes over to Kyo's unannoced. He might want to just be left alone."
"Well I don't give a damn! I need to talk to him dammit....I'm going over." Then I hung up the phone.
Please god let me live through this
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BANG BANG BANG BANG
"Kyo open the door! I know your home!" And effin hurry up too....people are staring...."Kyo! Kyo!" Some more knocking....yelling....and the occasional threat and I FINALLY hear life on the other side of the fucking door. He cracked the door a little and I could only see his eye....he didn't look like he had just woke up....but...
"What the fuck do you want?"
"I need to talk to you about the other day."
"Theres nothing to talk about. Now leave. I don't want to be bothered." Like who the fuck does he think he is? I know he better let me in this motherfucking house.
"Fucking let me in." I pushed on the door and forced my way in and I really wish I didn't. He had some bitch running around trying to get dressed. What the fuck Kyo?! And you were talking about me using you? How the fuck could he do this? AGAIN?! And this fucker has the nerve to act like nothing is happening. He yawned, scratched his head and sat down on the couch....leaving me at the front door with my mouth wide open. Whoever the girl was had left by now telling Kyo to call her later and he was still sitting there ignoreing me watching TV.
"Kyo what the fuck was all that?!" He looked at me and back to the TV.
"They are called females Ruki." he said. Asshole.
"No you stupid fuck....what the fuck was she doing here?" He laughed.
"What do ya think Ruki..." he said sarcassically. I swear I'm going to beat the shit out of him. "What are you getting so upset for Ruki? It's not like we are together."
"Thats besides the fucking point...."
"Fucking shut the hell up. What do you want?" He was getting pissed off but I could care less.
"I came to tell you I was sorry. I wasn't using.....I really did miss you." He nodded his head and turned the station.
"Is that all?" It's like he wants me to wail on him, acting like he doesn't care. I hate it when he does that.
"Why are you acting like this?" I'm damn near in his face now and he has yet to get up.
"I'm not acting like anything..." he got up and got in my face. "Now get out." his voice was low and deep and it was really turning me on. Damn him. I love how he can dominate over me....not like Reita's bitch ass. Stay calm Ruki....lets not turn into a masochist whore....Riiiight, too late...
I crossed my arms over my chest.
"And if I don't..." Thats when he got real close to me, grabbed me by my fucking neck and looked me in the eye
"If you don't get the fuck out of house your bandmates might be scraping you up off my carpet......." Now I had to think....What did I do that made this asshole so mad at me.
"Fuck you Kyo...." It came out before I had a chance to think about it and I found myself slapped, thrown on the couch, being kissed like really super hard. It was kinda hot. And me being the closet whore that I am I actually started moaning. He heard me and laughed. I was about to tell him to shut up but it didn't seem important at the time cuz now he was trying to rip my jeans off....these pants cost a lot of fucking money and they happen to be my favorite pair....
Well he finally gets them off and is now taking off my shirt and his own clothes and I swear my heart dropped to my stomach. I actually forgot how big he was. I mean yea I felt it the other day but that was just enough to make me cum but this is like.....freaking....freak dude! I was pulled out of my little daydream when he grabbed me by my hair.
"Get on you fucking knees and suck me." he said harshly. I fucking love his voice...its so sexy. So like I get on the floor and just stared at it for awhile....That must have pissed him off too cuz the bastard grabbed my hair again and forced his dick in my mouth. Like fuck dude....I was getting to it.....jeez...you don't have to be so rough. I'm fragile ya know.....
He practically made me deep throat him in one go and I ALMOST choked on him...I don't know if that makes me a slut cuz I didn't...I'll ask Saki later....right now I have something more important to focus on. He pulled me back and made me do it again and it went on for like two seconds then I slapped his hand away. I hate it when they force me to suck them. I can do it myself dammit.
I went back to sucking him the way I wanted to, nipping the head, licking the vein under his cock and pushing the tip of my tounge in the slit of his cock and other things I knew would get him off. The sounds coming from him were really turning me on and my own dick wanted to join the party so I let little Ruru...thats right...I said it. I started jacking off while I sucked on him. I feel like Saki right now but I'm going to forget about that at the moment and just feel. With all the teasing I must have been doing my job right cuz he stopped me and started jerking himslef off.
Is he thinking what I think he's thinkin? And right before I can stop him or move out the way I feel parts of my face get hot and sticky. This motherfucker came on my beautiful fucking face. Does he know what that can do to my skin?!?! I'll break out dammit.....my face just clear the fuck up and now I have to deal with this. Even right now he's still pumping more out and I can feel it run down my cheek, lips, and dripping slowly onto my chest. It was very irritating. Like when you cry and the tears move down too slow and it iches you or just feels weird and you want to wipe it off.
He's coming down from his high and he looks down at me. I didn't like it. I felt like shit right now. The look he was giving me was the kinda look your parents give you when you tell them you got your girlfriend pregnant.....or in my case that I was gay. What I didn't understand was why so upset. I thought this is what he wanted...I mean he did start it. He threw his shirt at me so I could clean up and told me to get out again but the tone his was soft...weak.Why?
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I called Kai that I wasn't able to come over his little get together. He told me that Reita had called too and that he sounded alittle sad, despressed and he wanted me to go check up on him. I really really really didn't want to but he promised to make practice and future recordings hell for me and I already had to go through that once and I don't want it to happen a second time. I cleaned myself up before I went over and when I did show up all the lights were out. I was about to leave but I heard someone moving in the living room cussing. He must have hit something. I knocked on the door and I heard more cussing. It made me laugh....stupid Rei.
"What is it?"
"Rude much! I came to see if you were alright." He looked at me like Yeah the fuck right. He knew I was forced to come here and he let me in anyway.
"Why weren't you able to make it to Kai's dinner?" I asked and turned on the lights.
"I just didn't want to want to go...Shouldn't you be there too?"
I shurgged and sat on the couch. "I should but I didn't feel like it." He came over and sat next to me.
"And why is that?"
"Just didn't."
It stayed quiet for a long time and we still didn't say anything. It wasn't one of those uncomfortable akward silences but I didn't like that quiet so I said the first thing that came to my mind.
"So how are you and Hitomi?"
He scoffed and rolled his eyes.
"We decided to just be fuck buddies but then she goes and gets herself a girlfriend. Can you believe that shit?"
Hearing that I like had to laugh. Like are you fucking serious Rei? How the hell do you not notice that?! So like before we became famous and before Kyo....me and Hitomi use to be really good friends. She was such a nice sweet innocent girl who wouldn't hurt a fly. I'm still trying to pinpoint when it was she started changing but I think it has to do with when she went to college. After she dropped out she was a completly different person. She was drinking smoking, even dowing drugs. She would sleep around a lot and one night she crashed at my house and woke up with a massive headache.
Well long story short Reita and Aoi was coming over to help me move in my new couch and saw her coming out the bathroom after a shower naked and they just stared at each other. She said hey and left and went they were leaving Reita asked for her number and they had been talking since then. I tried to warn him about her but he wouldn't listen.
When we didn start getting famous and we were getting recognized, we were all going to meet up at Kai's to celebrate and I had to go get Reita. I called to see if he was home cuz I didn't want to be stuck there loookin stupid. He told me that he was on his way but Hitomi would be there to let me in but when I got there the door was already slightly cracked. I went inside and I saw a trail of clothes starting from the living room and going to the bedroom.
I thought Rei had got there before me so I was going to wait outside until they finished but she called out womens name. I'm like what the fuck?! So I go back there and she was fucking riding some chicks face and I'm like WHAT THE FUCK?! A straight man would have thought it a dream come true but I didn't care for that sort of thing. If it didn't have a dick I wasn't interested......but only people.....anyway
I told Reita it was a man cuz I knew he wouldn't believe me if I told him the truth. He'd say something about she isn't a lesbian and think I was trying to break them up which would be true but not this time. Anyway I told her that our friendship was over and that was the last time I seen her.
"It's not funny Ruki.....How would feel if Kyo was dating someone else?" he asked. I stopped laughing and got quiet.
"Well I would hope they were happy together. And besides I don't think I would care cuz we arent dating."
He looked over at me.
"I thought you were. By the way you act when I said his name and all that shit about him."
"Nope. He's mad at me for thinking I was using him to get back at you. I just left his house and some bitch was over there." I said softly.
"Ru..."
"I really did miss him Rei....I still do." I was trying really hard not to cry. I don't why I was getting so emotional for.
"Don't worry about it too much. I'm sure he didn't mean anything mean he might have said. He's just mad. You remeber how he can get."
"Yea but still....you didn't see the look on his face...."
TBC
A/N: Sorry for the long wait. My mother is being difficult again and my boyfriend has kinda moved into the house for a littlel while and won't let me go back in my room so thats way it takes so long to write up new chapters. But um yea please comment and tell me what you think.