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My feeling of disillusionment is fading. Thank God. Its been almost exactly a year since my little pilgrimage through the desert, I've been so fixated on the fact that my emotions are so opposite from a year ago. It was such a very intense time, leaving CSF which had such an impact on my life and beginning a new phase. Last summer was entered with the anticipation of expansion, this summer with the need for excitement and the circumstances in my life have totally flipped. This is a time for grounding.
It was really nice seeing Colin, however briefly, we had a very good visit at the spiderhouse at two in the morning....we had a strangely intellectual conversation which almost seemed like a parody of coffee shop talk, especially for Colin and me....serial killers and my moody brain. I'm at the ranch now, and having a really nice time all alone here. But I have this perverse desire to worry, since spring semester is passed and my mind relatively clear I've been constructing this hyper paranoid image of my poor little apartment robbed blind. It leaps into my head and I pray its not intuition.
It was really nice seeing Colin, however briefly, we had a very good visit at the spiderhouse at two in the morning....we had a strangely intellectual conversation which almost seemed like a parody of coffee shop talk, especially for Colin and me....serial killers and my moody brain. I'm at the ranch now, and having a really nice time all alone here. But I have this perverse desire to worry, since spring semester is passed and my mind relatively clear I've been constructing this hyper paranoid image of my poor little apartment robbed blind. It leaps into my head and I pray its not intuition.