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MY hands both are SORE from Binding Corn since the break of MORN!
anyway.. so!... im here to update...my life... mi vida... or something to that extent...whatever this thing im living in right now...these past few days have been rough i guess you could say... ive just been really busy with the whole work schedule...and school schedule and opera schedule.... trying to bring my grades up..and SOMEHWAT studying... and trying to get some extra cash to drive around in my little jeep. rudy lost his job..because of gas prices costing too much for the pasedena plant to keep running, so hes going back to school and the union is paying for it.. or something like that.... so since hes lost his job... my mother and I have been taking turns arguing about whos life sucks more, which is really stupid..because i sympathize with her... and yes she wins. so why does she still have to argue with me.
Ive been ill for the past 2 days now, with a stuffy nose and congested everything.. my head feels like its being squeezed through a juicer.and all i want to do these days is just sleep. at a time when thats all i CANT do... i havent really looked at my music, nor do i think i care to...top 100 is in a few weeks and i picked this song Wehmut, which means melancholy in German, when in all reality the song speaks nothing about sadness at all..weird... so i have to start getting ready for that. Im thinking about switching jobs.... Victorias secret... yeah weird i know.. but they pay better than where i am. and! its not Old Navy because theyre driving me nuts.. the customers there drive me nuts... so if u go out shopping... please put the clothes back where you found them :). Um, David and I broke up, not the greatest story of my life. Im not even sure where things went wrong. However, i do know that it happened in like an instant. and now we dont even speak to eachother. Im in this process of where i did whatever i could to get him to have me back, although i called it off. and he refuses to take anything from me...regardless of how much i beg. So, i try to forget him... but he refuses to let me, because he'll send me a text message saying something thatll get me thinking.. so i go back to him..and attempt once more at saving something. but sadly... nothing. so i go to forget him once more...and i have contact with him once more.... this time not expecting it.. giving me hope that YES! things will work out... and this time... the outcome worsens...... i write him this email....a lenghty one...spilling out everything i feel...and i get the rudest response ever.. about not adding him as a friend on myspace.bullshit. so there i go...moving on with myself....living for myself...trying to figure out what i want...when out of nowhere...i get another message...but nothing too drastic.. just another dramatic scene being portrayed.. so i decided im not going to get into this. it ended with his response..."i dont need you to like me"...which is blasphemous because if he didnt.. why wont he just leave me alone..and let me live my life.... its hard enough without him....but why does he have to be a constant reminder of something ive once again lost.
BUT!
on the other Hand!
EUGENE ONEGIN! will be opening Friday Night at Moores Opera House at 730 Pm...
Saturday Sunday and Monday..so bring flowers...just kidding.
the show is glorious and gina is hot.
and i get to wear a green suit.
umm what else is good..i have ALL SATURDAY OFF!!!
and!!!! i found 20 dollars this morning..
my throat hurts
like... a bia.
i hate school :).
thats all for now
anyway.. so!... im here to update...my life... mi vida... or something to that extent...whatever this thing im living in right now...these past few days have been rough i guess you could say... ive just been really busy with the whole work schedule...and school schedule and opera schedule.... trying to bring my grades up..and SOMEHWAT studying... and trying to get some extra cash to drive around in my little jeep. rudy lost his job..because of gas prices costing too much for the pasedena plant to keep running, so hes going back to school and the union is paying for it.. or something like that.... so since hes lost his job... my mother and I have been taking turns arguing about whos life sucks more, which is really stupid..because i sympathize with her... and yes she wins. so why does she still have to argue with me.
Ive been ill for the past 2 days now, with a stuffy nose and congested everything.. my head feels like its being squeezed through a juicer.and all i want to do these days is just sleep. at a time when thats all i CANT do... i havent really looked at my music, nor do i think i care to...top 100 is in a few weeks and i picked this song Wehmut, which means melancholy in German, when in all reality the song speaks nothing about sadness at all..weird... so i have to start getting ready for that. Im thinking about switching jobs.... Victorias secret... yeah weird i know.. but they pay better than where i am. and! its not Old Navy because theyre driving me nuts.. the customers there drive me nuts... so if u go out shopping... please put the clothes back where you found them :). Um, David and I broke up, not the greatest story of my life. Im not even sure where things went wrong. However, i do know that it happened in like an instant. and now we dont even speak to eachother. Im in this process of where i did whatever i could to get him to have me back, although i called it off. and he refuses to take anything from me...regardless of how much i beg. So, i try to forget him... but he refuses to let me, because he'll send me a text message saying something thatll get me thinking.. so i go back to him..and attempt once more at saving something. but sadly... nothing. so i go to forget him once more...and i have contact with him once more.... this time not expecting it.. giving me hope that YES! things will work out... and this time... the outcome worsens...... i write him this email....a lenghty one...spilling out everything i feel...and i get the rudest response ever.. about not adding him as a friend on myspace.bullshit. so there i go...moving on with myself....living for myself...trying to figure out what i want...when out of nowhere...i get another message...but nothing too drastic.. just another dramatic scene being portrayed.. so i decided im not going to get into this. it ended with his response..."i dont need you to like me"...which is blasphemous because if he didnt.. why wont he just leave me alone..and let me live my life.... its hard enough without him....but why does he have to be a constant reminder of something ive once again lost.
BUT!
on the other Hand!
EUGENE ONEGIN! will be opening Friday Night at Moores Opera House at 730 Pm...
Saturday Sunday and Monday..so bring flowers...just kidding.
the show is glorious and gina is hot.
and i get to wear a green suit.
umm what else is good..i have ALL SATURDAY OFF!!!
and!!!! i found 20 dollars this morning..
my throat hurts
like... a bia.
i hate school :).
thats all for now