"Heartbreaks are painful, and it hurts a lot more when you feel helpless. Ever felt like the harder you tried, the more the person you loved slipped away from you? It’s like squeezing grains of sand in your palm." ~

Leigh-Ann: You think he was your true love?
...
Me: So, yes, in some ways I did think that. But how can you think that when they left you alone?
Leigh-Ann: Ya, that's when you know it's over.
Leigh-Ann: That's hard.

It's been a year since I got the text saying I would be asked for advice that I never got to offer, more or less listen to.
The decision that made my life harder emotionally and tore at my heart..
What I've realized, is why I want to know why being friends was so vital after how I was treated.
I realize I pinpoint the choice often inadvertently, but ( Read more... )

"You make Europe sound so boring," he said to me.
I was aware of it; how I was talking now, my present nonchalance, compared to my excitement in describing it to others.
Not nonchalance, but wariness, not sure of how much I wanted to share or show my feelings.
Mostly because of what hurt me: the shitty goodbye, and the reappearance that seemed like ( Read more... )

It’s like you’re screaming and no one can hear. You almost feel ashamed that someone could be that important, that without them you feel like nothing. No one will ever understand how much it hurts. You feel hopeless, like nothing can save you. And when it’s over and it’s gone, you almost wish you could have all the bad stuff back, so you can have ( Read more... )

yos

i just got my secret santa person their gift. pumped. 
thats it really, i wanted to say something about apoz thanksgiving but theres nothing really to say.

see you tomorrow betty
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You are such a dork and a half.
I love it.


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Cal: "I'm so mad at you. I'm really mad at you for what you did. But I'm mad at myself too. Because I should not have jumped out of that car - I should have fought for you. Because you fight for your soul mates."

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& I was excited for the potential visit ( Read more... )