Long time
Dear (Your Name Here),
Well, I went a whole year without writing in this thing. Sure, it started out by me forgetting about it, for probably four months. At that time I just decided to go for a year and see how huge the change would be. In the end, a lot of things happened that I wish I could have gotten off my chest, things I wish I could have talked about and things which changed me.
When I think about it, I guess my life isn't the way I'd like it to be. I mean for the past few months I kept thinking, "Who cares? We're not meant to live life the way we want." But thinking from the perspective of a year ago, my life is very ... watered down. It's like a day-in, day-out sort of thing that I loathe. I mean I can see the places I want to go, the things I want to do, the work I want to accomplish, but it seems like there's no path to any of them. Does that mean that I shouldn't envision those things anymore?
What do we do about anything? Why must people have a wall of stubborn dark matter imprisoning their reason? I can see the way things should be, I can even think of ways to get there, but because of the fact that people will just do whatever they want to do and it's not my place to say, "No, that's just wrong," I just sit and watch things get worse. And a lot of these problems trap me in the process.
It makes me want to run away, be someone else, be in a coma... or at least disappear.
So if anyone was waiting on reading this, I'm sorry about coming back as a huge downer. But that's the way life goes sometimes.
-Doug
Well, I went a whole year without writing in this thing. Sure, it started out by me forgetting about it, for probably four months. At that time I just decided to go for a year and see how huge the change would be. In the end, a lot of things happened that I wish I could have gotten off my chest, things I wish I could have talked about and things which changed me.
When I think about it, I guess my life isn't the way I'd like it to be. I mean for the past few months I kept thinking, "Who cares? We're not meant to live life the way we want." But thinking from the perspective of a year ago, my life is very ... watered down. It's like a day-in, day-out sort of thing that I loathe. I mean I can see the places I want to go, the things I want to do, the work I want to accomplish, but it seems like there's no path to any of them. Does that mean that I shouldn't envision those things anymore?
What do we do about anything? Why must people have a wall of stubborn dark matter imprisoning their reason? I can see the way things should be, I can even think of ways to get there, but because of the fact that people will just do whatever they want to do and it's not my place to say, "No, that's just wrong," I just sit and watch things get worse. And a lot of these problems trap me in the process.
It makes me want to run away, be someone else, be in a coma... or at least disappear.
So if anyone was waiting on reading this, I'm sorry about coming back as a huge downer. But that's the way life goes sometimes.
-Doug