Some Problems
The Labor day weekend went by so fast. I barely noticed. So, I’m back to the same old routine. Things at home haven’t changed at all. I would say its probably worst, and I’m better off being here. I don’t want to be mean to my family, but even though I miss them a lot, I d rather spend the whole semester and the following school years to come at my dorm, at a new apartment or at a different state. Things are never going to change. Yeah, I enjoyed yesterday which was the time my parents dropped me off at ISU. We had a good conversation in the car and I realized that where all in the same page. It was nice to see my parents, ones in awhile, but the couple of days at my house was not so good. There were too many problems with other family members. Although I don’t want to concern myself about whats going on over there, I feel like I have the obligation to help them out. But what if I already tried talking to them, and they still wouldn’t listen? I don’t know how to help them. Plus another thing, Kaycee did not hang out with me just to hang out with her new boyfriend. It kind of made me feel horrible, but its okay, we already talked about it and she told me that she might visit me here. Yeah, I spent the Saturday and Sunday at home. Well other than going to church and eating lunch at the pond, I was stuck in my room.
I was looking through my belongings. I was planning to bring everything at my dorm, but I decided not to. If I decide to take summer classes, go the the NFB national convention and youth slam next summer, would that avoid me from staying at home? Yes, it will but I’m only avoiding the problem. No, the problem is not with my parents or my two other sisters. Its with Katrina. I don’t know what to tell her or what to do with her. Her problem really bothers me. she graduated from college, has not yet found a job, and has a loan that piled up in a collection company. I don’t know what to do with her. On top of this, she is with someone that is lesser than what she has. He is not going to college or working. She is in a relationship with him and they see each other lots of times. My parents caught her in the act two separate times in the same week. My dad caught her kissing in front of the door step on Tuesday night and my mom did not find her in her room at Wednesday night. A couple of hours later, my mom saw her sneaking and passing through the window, breaking the wire, and making mud stains on the carpet. She grounded her from going out, got her phone and her lap top from her. I’m not judging the guy. Look, she probably don’t see things the way I do. Why would I study hard, do the best I can to be a better person, and organize my life, just to end up with someone who does not give a damn about where he is in life? I don’t want to waste my free time hanging out with someone who doesn’t even know what he wants. I’ve been there before, I did those things, and I learned from it. I don’t know how to communicate with my sister. Probably she needs to experience what had happened to me to learn. I don’t know if I put sense into her. Her reasoning is messed up. she graduated from college but didn’t get good grades. and her reason was to take five or more classes at a time to finish early and to pay less, now look what happened. Her bills are piling up, she can’t find a job, and she’s creating more problems for herself by associating with some guy who will just toy around with her. This guy is full of excuses. He told her that he was on a cruise, but one of his friends from church told us that he saw him there. Why is he lying to her? And what excuses does he have for going to our house very late at night like two in the morning? A decent guy would go earlier unless he just wants her as a last minute replacement for his hang out plans. I don’t know what he wants with her. She told me that he did not have a phone. That’s bullshit. No way, I will never buy that excuse that is a big lie. Your that poor that you can’t even buy a phone? Then where did you get the money to go to a cruise? Damn it. I hate it when guys lie just to get there way with girls. I heard from several people that he has a girlfriend in Gurnee Illinois, which is an hour away from my house. What the fuck does he want with my sister. I’m so irritated because he is not making her a productive person. She’s always yelled at by my parents and is always in trouble. I know my parents are harsh, and they don’t have the right to verbally abuse us with their words, but I think, they are just looking out for her, and she wouldn’t listen to anyone. I don’t know how to help her. Even I can’t get through her. I don’t know how to put some sense into her.
I just care that’s why I’m trying to help her, but I don’t know how much longer can I go. She really needs to grow up, find herself a job, and start thinking of a way to pay her loans. She needs to understand that my parents are not always there to help her. My parents both got other bills to pay as well. And they are getting tired of her being lazy and doing nothing around the house. I don’t know how to help her. I can only do so much. I got other problems too, but I’m trying to fix it by myself. Its not easy, but I manage day by day. Honestly, I feel shy asking money from my parents, so I never did. Sometimes, my mom gives me some money, I say thanks. I try to save the money and budget everything. Although the money is not enough, getting some help is better than none. So, I wish I can think of a way to talk to my sister. Cause I already told her all the advice I can give her, and she still asserts on what she thinks which is wrong. i hope when I go back there for Thanksgiving, things will turn out right for her. I understand where she’s coming from, its just that, she really needs to be practical these days. You can’t enjoy the fruits of your labor if your intentions are for the wrong reasons. She can’t just depend on my parents for everything and think of it as a free ride. She is already an adult, she needs to take this time and prioritize her life. I will just take things day by day. Hopefully, the next time she calls me, she has good things to say.
I was looking through my belongings. I was planning to bring everything at my dorm, but I decided not to. If I decide to take summer classes, go the the NFB national convention and youth slam next summer, would that avoid me from staying at home? Yes, it will but I’m only avoiding the problem. No, the problem is not with my parents or my two other sisters. Its with Katrina. I don’t know what to tell her or what to do with her. Her problem really bothers me. she graduated from college, has not yet found a job, and has a loan that piled up in a collection company. I don’t know what to do with her. On top of this, she is with someone that is lesser than what she has. He is not going to college or working. She is in a relationship with him and they see each other lots of times. My parents caught her in the act two separate times in the same week. My dad caught her kissing in front of the door step on Tuesday night and my mom did not find her in her room at Wednesday night. A couple of hours later, my mom saw her sneaking and passing through the window, breaking the wire, and making mud stains on the carpet. She grounded her from going out, got her phone and her lap top from her. I’m not judging the guy. Look, she probably don’t see things the way I do. Why would I study hard, do the best I can to be a better person, and organize my life, just to end up with someone who does not give a damn about where he is in life? I don’t want to waste my free time hanging out with someone who doesn’t even know what he wants. I’ve been there before, I did those things, and I learned from it. I don’t know how to communicate with my sister. Probably she needs to experience what had happened to me to learn. I don’t know if I put sense into her. Her reasoning is messed up. she graduated from college but didn’t get good grades. and her reason was to take five or more classes at a time to finish early and to pay less, now look what happened. Her bills are piling up, she can’t find a job, and she’s creating more problems for herself by associating with some guy who will just toy around with her. This guy is full of excuses. He told her that he was on a cruise, but one of his friends from church told us that he saw him there. Why is he lying to her? And what excuses does he have for going to our house very late at night like two in the morning? A decent guy would go earlier unless he just wants her as a last minute replacement for his hang out plans. I don’t know what he wants with her. She told me that he did not have a phone. That’s bullshit. No way, I will never buy that excuse that is a big lie. Your that poor that you can’t even buy a phone? Then where did you get the money to go to a cruise? Damn it. I hate it when guys lie just to get there way with girls. I heard from several people that he has a girlfriend in Gurnee Illinois, which is an hour away from my house. What the fuck does he want with my sister. I’m so irritated because he is not making her a productive person. She’s always yelled at by my parents and is always in trouble. I know my parents are harsh, and they don’t have the right to verbally abuse us with their words, but I think, they are just looking out for her, and she wouldn’t listen to anyone. I don’t know how to help her. Even I can’t get through her. I don’t know how to put some sense into her.
I just care that’s why I’m trying to help her, but I don’t know how much longer can I go. She really needs to grow up, find herself a job, and start thinking of a way to pay her loans. She needs to understand that my parents are not always there to help her. My parents both got other bills to pay as well. And they are getting tired of her being lazy and doing nothing around the house. I don’t know how to help her. I can only do so much. I got other problems too, but I’m trying to fix it by myself. Its not easy, but I manage day by day. Honestly, I feel shy asking money from my parents, so I never did. Sometimes, my mom gives me some money, I say thanks. I try to save the money and budget everything. Although the money is not enough, getting some help is better than none. So, I wish I can think of a way to talk to my sister. Cause I already told her all the advice I can give her, and she still asserts on what she thinks which is wrong. i hope when I go back there for Thanksgiving, things will turn out right for her. I understand where she’s coming from, its just that, she really needs to be practical these days. You can’t enjoy the fruits of your labor if your intentions are for the wrong reasons. She can’t just depend on my parents for everything and think of it as a free ride. She is already an adult, she needs to take this time and prioritize her life. I will just take things day by day. Hopefully, the next time she calls me, she has good things to say.