so unliked, haha
I'm crying on the inside.
so I'm in the inbetween phase in life where I'm getting all focused on a careeeeeeeeeeer and everything around me seems to be slowing to a lull while I'm motoring forward. I still haven't found a different gig and work life is so crappy that I keep itching to just peace out but in reality I would be pretty screwed if I did that. I put in an application at Michaels Arts & Crafts this evening, lol. I worked there when I was young and its so different now. There's a background check and a really long personality test! Jesus christ corporate America! And everything wants to know if you are wanting to be a manager - all the questions are geared towards that. What if I just want an easy going job while in College? Why is that sooooooooo hard to grasp? Why does everyone have to want to be a manager? I've been a manager its not that cool. Currently I'm being used the fuck up at my job and I'm at my wits end. My mom told me today to just stop doing what they are telling me to do. She agrees they are using me. To hear her even say these things are rather amazing. She's rarely on my side. I can't really talk to anyone I work with and that makes me sad as well. Everyone wants me to do everything and will do all they can do guide things so that's how it is. This is what happens when you are an intelligent person working in a field that is no education required. It's just maddening I can't win, I don't want to win, but I just can't win! though. What is going on is there's been shifts in rolls and no one is really happy about it and no one is really being talked to about it - no one wants to do more work but no one wants me to be in a roll of authority either, including myself. So I applied at Michaels but fuck that mess - is possible to find a job without taking a 100 question personality test? Do I have to go corporate, when are things less stupid?
I love working for my school - those 10hrs a week are amazing - no bugs me no one snoops no one looks over me or talks shit or makes me feel ridiculous for existing...I just do my couple of hours and thats that. I'm treated like the adult that I am. I would love to do that full time....man o man
so I'm in the inbetween phase in life where I'm getting all focused on a careeeeeeeeeeer and everything around me seems to be slowing to a lull while I'm motoring forward. I still haven't found a different gig and work life is so crappy that I keep itching to just peace out but in reality I would be pretty screwed if I did that. I put in an application at Michaels Arts & Crafts this evening, lol. I worked there when I was young and its so different now. There's a background check and a really long personality test! Jesus christ corporate America! And everything wants to know if you are wanting to be a manager - all the questions are geared towards that. What if I just want an easy going job while in College? Why is that sooooooooo hard to grasp? Why does everyone have to want to be a manager? I've been a manager its not that cool. Currently I'm being used the fuck up at my job and I'm at my wits end. My mom told me today to just stop doing what they are telling me to do. She agrees they are using me. To hear her even say these things are rather amazing. She's rarely on my side. I can't really talk to anyone I work with and that makes me sad as well. Everyone wants me to do everything and will do all they can do guide things so that's how it is. This is what happens when you are an intelligent person working in a field that is no education required. It's just maddening I can't win, I don't want to win, but I just can't win! though. What is going on is there's been shifts in rolls and no one is really happy about it and no one is really being talked to about it - no one wants to do more work but no one wants me to be in a roll of authority either, including myself. So I applied at Michaels but fuck that mess - is possible to find a job without taking a 100 question personality test? Do I have to go corporate, when are things less stupid?
I love working for my school - those 10hrs a week are amazing - no bugs me no one snoops no one looks over me or talks shit or makes me feel ridiculous for existing...I just do my couple of hours and thats that. I'm treated like the adult that I am. I would love to do that full time....man o man