oh geez
Well I am pretty sure I just flopped a phone interview...oh well who wants to work for a major corporation anyways...
I think it was for a help desk gig which wasn't really what I was going for so I'm alright, just felt horrible floundering - what on earth was I thinking agreeing to do this at 8pm on a day of school and class. Blarg. I still feel silly and rediculous...it is my first interview in YEARS but still...my brain just stopped.
Things at my job just keep getting worse and I am still making the same money. They keep trying to thrust responsibilities on me but on a no title level so they don't feel they need to give me a raise to go with it. I'm a top performer and am good at what I do but no one wants to do what I do and everyone that I have been trying to train to do what I do resents me because they have been there far longer than me. There longer than me, making far more than me, and I'm training them on how to do my job and have to guide them and point out their errors. They hate me and its a constant power struggle and I have no power! Nor do I want it. Not to mention my coworker now supervisor keeps getting pissed at me because she thinks I'm stepping on her toes aka out performing her in an attempt to steal her role. A role I was offered and declined! No matter how many times I tell her I have no ill intent she is still constantly getting pissed at me and being passive about it. I confront her because its better to just get it out but its the same thing over and over. Nothing I can. I told them I don't want a leadership role with the way this company is its a horrible idea. So instead I'm being trusted into this spot with no title and no pay increase.
Besides that school is going really well, I'm just trying to get in somewhere so I can start using what I learned on a more consistent basis. Everyone wants senior developers or the moon and the stars. I am just going to keep trying. I keep getting told its too soon but I'm trying to ignore them.
I'm suppose to go home this weekend but I think I'm cutting it shorter than anticipated.
I was feeling so positive....
I think it was for a help desk gig which wasn't really what I was going for so I'm alright, just felt horrible floundering - what on earth was I thinking agreeing to do this at 8pm on a day of school and class. Blarg. I still feel silly and rediculous...it is my first interview in YEARS but still...my brain just stopped.
Things at my job just keep getting worse and I am still making the same money. They keep trying to thrust responsibilities on me but on a no title level so they don't feel they need to give me a raise to go with it. I'm a top performer and am good at what I do but no one wants to do what I do and everyone that I have been trying to train to do what I do resents me because they have been there far longer than me. There longer than me, making far more than me, and I'm training them on how to do my job and have to guide them and point out their errors. They hate me and its a constant power struggle and I have no power! Nor do I want it. Not to mention my coworker now supervisor keeps getting pissed at me because she thinks I'm stepping on her toes aka out performing her in an attempt to steal her role. A role I was offered and declined! No matter how many times I tell her I have no ill intent she is still constantly getting pissed at me and being passive about it. I confront her because its better to just get it out but its the same thing over and over. Nothing I can. I told them I don't want a leadership role with the way this company is its a horrible idea. So instead I'm being trusted into this spot with no title and no pay increase.
Besides that school is going really well, I'm just trying to get in somewhere so I can start using what I learned on a more consistent basis. Everyone wants senior developers or the moon and the stars. I am just going to keep trying. I keep getting told its too soon but I'm trying to ignore them.
I'm suppose to go home this weekend but I think I'm cutting it shorter than anticipated.
I was feeling so positive....