Well, I guessed it but....
Neil is seeing someone else, has been for the last 7 months ..he told me today when he rang, thats why he backed out of today. However he "still wants to see me" - but I can't and won't be someones bit on the side.
I'm not going to give him any ultimatums either, I know who will win. He is never gonna leave, not for me.
I won't delete or edit my last few entries, as they were true: that is how I felt. Deep down I had my suspicions: a young, cute guy like that single...well I knew in my heart, but my head didn't want to admit the thought, therefore it wasn't entertained.
Parts of me feel like crying, parts of be say "why the hell do you care?": both of them attract me equally. I'm disappointed, but not devastated. I didn't invest too much emotion into it yet, so therefore this is how I am. I'll write later, when I make sense.
I'm not going to give him any ultimatums either, I know who will win. He is never gonna leave, not for me.
I won't delete or edit my last few entries, as they were true: that is how I felt. Deep down I had my suspicions: a young, cute guy like that single...well I knew in my heart, but my head didn't want to admit the thought, therefore it wasn't entertained.
Parts of me feel like crying, parts of be say "why the hell do you care?": both of them attract me equally. I'm disappointed, but not devastated. I didn't invest too much emotion into it yet, so therefore this is how I am. I'll write later, when I make sense.