What I've been through....
...shock, horror, depression, cynicism, stress, bitterness, lonelyness, fear.....
It's been a while since I've covered such a broad range of negative emotions in such a short space of time. Last night was when it really began to hit me, and the whole range of emotions became so much more real.
It's all too real at the moment. These are real lives, real people: my friends - my collegues. This is our own little world being ripped apart, slowly, making each day a painful step towards the coming goodbye. Our world being made someone elses, and we're not going with it.
I know I can transfer, but it's all still a big muddle in my mind. Too many ifs, buts, whys, wheres and whens at the moment. Also no point going for the same salary, as I'll end up paying a lot more expenses. I'll see what, and if anything, they will offer me. God - I should stop worrying about me.
God, I'm sitting at home, and I actually feel helpless, as if I should be doing something - anything. I know I can't, but it doesn't take the edge of the need.
It's been a while since I've covered such a broad range of negative emotions in such a short space of time. Last night was when it really began to hit me, and the whole range of emotions became so much more real.
It's all too real at the moment. These are real lives, real people: my friends - my collegues. This is our own little world being ripped apart, slowly, making each day a painful step towards the coming goodbye. Our world being made someone elses, and we're not going with it.
I know I can transfer, but it's all still a big muddle in my mind. Too many ifs, buts, whys, wheres and whens at the moment. Also no point going for the same salary, as I'll end up paying a lot more expenses. I'll see what, and if anything, they will offer me. God - I should stop worrying about me.
God, I'm sitting at home, and I actually feel helpless, as if I should be doing something - anything. I know I can't, but it doesn't take the edge of the need.