Its just another manic moment....
I don't know. Something else has just hit me. I'm gonna lose friends when we all leave. That is probably one of the most depressing things about this whole mess: the fact that I'd just settled in and gotten to know (for the most part) a good bunch of people and now, I'm going to see them fade into the background.
I'm normally good with change, but when I implement it. This time, its not me making the change though, and the lack of control is freaky. I feel powerless at the moment, powerless to not lose my friends, powerless not to lose the work I enjoy. Everything is frustrating, and at the moment, there just doesn't seem to be light at the end of this tunnel.
It's all sounding very manic, but I'm sure it'll clear up, but the great thing about livejournal is that it gives you a good place to vent.
I'm normally good with change, but when I implement it. This time, its not me making the change though, and the lack of control is freaky. I feel powerless at the moment, powerless to not lose my friends, powerless not to lose the work I enjoy. Everything is frustrating, and at the moment, there just doesn't seem to be light at the end of this tunnel.
It's all sounding very manic, but I'm sure it'll clear up, but the great thing about livejournal is that it gives you a good place to vent.