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concert was a lot of fun. there was a harpist. i sight read one piece that somehow i'd never gotten or played at any rehearsal before. luckily it was an easy piece, a bunch of classic christmas songs mushed into eachother. the audience sang along, it was the last piece. we all wore blue bowties. took myself to dinner afterwards. didn't feel like eating.
i'm a little depressed and it's my dad's fault. or rather mine because i should know better.
some good things, that useless organ has been functioning properly for a few weeks now, and in a couple more weeks people start coming back. god i miss them all. though what would make me really happy is if i could fix an older friendship. december is just so off kilter. so are the other eleven.
i should paint. but it's like someone has to stand over me with a whip for me to do it. ha, whip for rewarding. my favorite time to doodle is while someone is talking to me.
i'm a little depressed and it's my dad's fault. or rather mine because i should know better.
some good things, that useless organ has been functioning properly for a few weeks now, and in a couple more weeks people start coming back. god i miss them all. though what would make me really happy is if i could fix an older friendship. december is just so off kilter. so are the other eleven.
i should paint. but it's like someone has to stand over me with a whip for me to do it. ha, whip for rewarding. my favorite time to doodle is while someone is talking to me.