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Sooo, I'm in a weird right now. I dont' really know what to think, so I'll just put down some random thoughts.
Angelica got a cellphone. That's mostly a good thing, because we've hardly been keeping in touch recently. At the same time, though, it means we're talking pretty much all the time, which is stirring up old feelings. That's not something I want when I'm trying to get my life focused forward.
Pretty much all of my group of friends has changed a lot in the past few months. No matter what they say, I know I'm getting left behind, and no one seems too concerned about it. What can you do though? When you're not wanted, you're not wanted.
So I told myself that I would start going to JRC as often as possible, hopefully everyday. Well, surprise surprise, my lazy ass has already messed up on that, this is my 2nd day in a row not going.
I really hate how fake most people are. It's not really their fault, it's just what our society has become. No respect for anything but whatever makes us happy right now. No respect for the past or taking things slow. No respect for the things that are truly important. I feel no sympathy for those who put everything off to have a little fun, then complain when they get crushed by their procrastination. Most of all, I hate myself for being such a hypocrite. I talk about these things and people that I don't like, but I'm really just like them. Is it wrong to despise happiness? It can't be right when you prefer pain and sadness because it feels more real to you.
Angelica got a cellphone. That's mostly a good thing, because we've hardly been keeping in touch recently. At the same time, though, it means we're talking pretty much all the time, which is stirring up old feelings. That's not something I want when I'm trying to get my life focused forward.
Pretty much all of my group of friends has changed a lot in the past few months. No matter what they say, I know I'm getting left behind, and no one seems too concerned about it. What can you do though? When you're not wanted, you're not wanted.
So I told myself that I would start going to JRC as often as possible, hopefully everyday. Well, surprise surprise, my lazy ass has already messed up on that, this is my 2nd day in a row not going.
I really hate how fake most people are. It's not really their fault, it's just what our society has become. No respect for anything but whatever makes us happy right now. No respect for the past or taking things slow. No respect for the things that are truly important. I feel no sympathy for those who put everything off to have a little fun, then complain when they get crushed by their procrastination. Most of all, I hate myself for being such a hypocrite. I talk about these things and people that I don't like, but I'm really just like them. Is it wrong to despise happiness? It can't be right when you prefer pain and sadness because it feels more real to you.