time for the death grip
papa always said "don't hold tight to your clarinet as if it were a straw and you were drowning. relax and your fingers will flow." well, this school year is the straw, and i am clutching it. i don't want to leave everyone! i don't know how i'm going to get through friday without crying. even tomorrow may be tough. i've had such a great time this year, i really don't want to see the end of it all. it really is the end of what has been a nearly perfect semester. there have been ups and downs, but i have such a warm-fuzzy feeling from it....
so, the event that nathan and i have been plotting for about a month now finally happened -- we crowned trevor "the chosen one". we even got him to wear the crown. we thought he was going to kill stab maim us. but he didn't. mel and i even had to remind him to say "his phrase" (i'm going to cry now). did i mention that i nearly cried? yes, i am a weapy female at times. so sue me.
after the coronation, and after a group meeting (did i mention the 48 page powerpoint and the 5 other 5-10 page papers associated?), nathan and trevor and i finished the cake from the coronation, and we played with google's new toys. google has great toys.
this summer it is my plan to walk at least 3 miles every day. that's at the beginning of the summer. towards the end, i will have worked up to more. maybe i should start small? 3 miles a day whenever i don't go in to work? or maybe i can only play with google's stuff after i have walked? i should put it in my calendar.
i can't sleep. i really can't. "my head's too light to try to set it down / bed, bed, i couldn't sleep tonight / not for all the jewel's in the crown!"
ok, another one of my goals is to get another laptop so that i can feel free to have at least one of them working the way i want. granted, i don't know what that way is yet. one way is a goal that i have had for a while, just felt too stupid to implement it: i have wanted to have a linux system for a while. i was scared off that dream freshman year because i saw that with john's system the operator had to know all sorts of command prompts & etc. i don't know that stuff! wanted something that would work immediately. no learning curve. well, i'm bored with my current system. i want something that i can have working the way i want it working, my own way, once i know what that way is. maybe if i channel the blonde energy into something useful to me, the strain of the blondeness will be taken off trevor's harddrives.
you know, the more i am exposed to webpages and the more i am exposed to the design of my own stuff, the more i want to do it. it's like my old addiction to lego's and lego building but changed to the information age. i love it. and that's why i need to place myself on an excersize regimen. i know that given a toy of this nature, i will play. and the house has real internet now, so i can play faster. also, i can go online at more reasonable times. before, since i would spend so long online, i was only allowed online after 9:30. parents didn't want any incoming calls after that hour. with easier access, though, comes greater responsibilities to my person.
anyway, enough neuroses about my figure.
when was the last time that i played MoO? a long time ago. it does strange things to my screen resolution, things that i don't like. i wonder if i want to uninstall it? i think that decision is something that can be made at a time that is not now. i'm too emotional. you know who put MoO on my laptop? that's right, john did. right now would not be the time to uninstall it. although, that's probably what's going to happen. i could put it on a CD... that might be the best solution.
ok, i might be getting tired now. we'll see. if all else fails, i'll just play with google. i have to finish setting up my home page, and the Blonde Field's page. links will be posted later.
so, the event that nathan and i have been plotting for about a month now finally happened -- we crowned trevor "the chosen one". we even got him to wear the crown. we thought he was going to kill stab maim us. but he didn't. mel and i even had to remind him to say "his phrase" (i'm going to cry now). did i mention that i nearly cried? yes, i am a weapy female at times. so sue me.
after the coronation, and after a group meeting (did i mention the 48 page powerpoint and the 5 other 5-10 page papers associated?), nathan and trevor and i finished the cake from the coronation, and we played with google's new toys. google has great toys.
this summer it is my plan to walk at least 3 miles every day. that's at the beginning of the summer. towards the end, i will have worked up to more. maybe i should start small? 3 miles a day whenever i don't go in to work? or maybe i can only play with google's stuff after i have walked? i should put it in my calendar.
i can't sleep. i really can't. "my head's too light to try to set it down / bed, bed, i couldn't sleep tonight / not for all the jewel's in the crown!"
ok, another one of my goals is to get another laptop so that i can feel free to have at least one of them working the way i want. granted, i don't know what that way is yet. one way is a goal that i have had for a while, just felt too stupid to implement it: i have wanted to have a linux system for a while. i was scared off that dream freshman year because i saw that with john's system the operator had to know all sorts of command prompts & etc. i don't know that stuff! wanted something that would work immediately. no learning curve. well, i'm bored with my current system. i want something that i can have working the way i want it working, my own way, once i know what that way is. maybe if i channel the blonde energy into something useful to me, the strain of the blondeness will be taken off trevor's harddrives.
you know, the more i am exposed to webpages and the more i am exposed to the design of my own stuff, the more i want to do it. it's like my old addiction to lego's and lego building but changed to the information age. i love it. and that's why i need to place myself on an excersize regimen. i know that given a toy of this nature, i will play. and the house has real internet now, so i can play faster. also, i can go online at more reasonable times. before, since i would spend so long online, i was only allowed online after 9:30. parents didn't want any incoming calls after that hour. with easier access, though, comes greater responsibilities to my person.
anyway, enough neuroses about my figure.
when was the last time that i played MoO? a long time ago. it does strange things to my screen resolution, things that i don't like. i wonder if i want to uninstall it? i think that decision is something that can be made at a time that is not now. i'm too emotional. you know who put MoO on my laptop? that's right, john did. right now would not be the time to uninstall it. although, that's probably what's going to happen. i could put it on a CD... that might be the best solution.
ok, i might be getting tired now. we'll see. if all else fails, i'll just play with google. i have to finish setting up my home page, and the Blonde Field's page. links will be posted later.