I want to do a study where I shadow a regular individual 24/7 and blend into the shadows in the perspective of my subject. I have this weird theory that the loss of identity doesn't only pertain to the way you view yourself, but how easily it is to be disregarded or sidelined.

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what is the threshold for feeling
where weariness threatens to capsize

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Recently, I've been overcome by a series of nightmares which outrun me repeatedly every time I allow myself to drift off to sleep. It's a kaleidoscope of people I know and love, twisted into terrifying proportions and perspectives against me, and the most simple concepts of trust and affection corrupted by paranoia and subconscious disgust. It's ( Read more... )

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I have a ton of comments to reply and TCG trades to respond to (sorry /sobs) but I've just been so busy trying to keep up with art and rl stuff a;lskdjasd. I've been hooked onto dA, tumblr and twitter lately... which are significantly easier to keep up with, but I feel like I can't express myself so wholly on those sites because they're all so ( Read more... )

I'm not going to be ambitious with hefty lists of do's and do not's this year. My only resolution is to stop hating myself, or at least not with such an intensity - for this self esteem problem is the core of the frustration with friends I could have liked with so much more feeling (currently a work-in-progress), the art blocks, the constant self- ( Read more... )

Too much time alone with windows shut and curtains drawn a little too often, losing your sense of time and starting to forget when the day starts or ends, or when whether it was one, or two, six days, two weeks ago you took a step out of your home... that spells the start of the holidays for me. Last week was better - I went back to school from ( Read more... )

Every exceptional work was the result of a prolonged successful struggle.

To be an exception a painter whose vision had been formed by tradition [...] needed to recognise his vision for what it was, and then separate it from the usage for which it had been developed. Single-handed he had to contest the norms that formed him. He had to see himself as ( Read more... )