thought residues that never leave my mind

[ciette]

I have a ton of comments to reply and TCG trades to respond to (sorry /sobs) but I've just been so busy trying to keep up with art and rl stuff a;lskdjasd. I've been hooked onto dA, tumblr and twitter lately... which are significantly easier to keep up with, but I feel like I can't express myself so wholly on those sites because they're all so

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[eclats_de_voix]

The boy, of course, was a crush. It didn't begin as a crush but a friendship over the summer. He had a girlfriend, so I didn't see him as someone to love. But then, he began flirting with me. His girlfriend was very far away that summer. We got along so well as friends that when he began flirting, it became too much for me. I asked him to just stop because he had a girlfriend, haha, after eating a pint of chocolate ice cream. I don't know what his true feelings were. What his real intentions were. We had really deep conversations. But when I told him this, he defended himself. he said he loved his girlfriend and he didn't know what I was talking about. (When, once on the way to the shower, I was wearing just sweats and he was holding a soda near the girls' room door and did this creepy, winky, flirty nod that said 'lookin'good' all over his face and I told him that that was the most awkward walk down the hallway ever. And after that, all these nervous habits came out because I got silently mad at him for gawking at me.) After I told him to stop, or else, I would like him back and that would be rough for me, he began to more than ignore me. He became really biting. Really mean. Avoiding me. I began to do the same to him. And it would be wierd because every now and then, we would have a random chill moment again as if it really were all fake. And then, it would be mean, but honest. "You're over-analytical," he told me once. It should have ended with summer but it didn't. When I came back from home from the internship we both worked at, he posted this on my faebook profile. I don't know why?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ht7aDSm5kdk&feature=related

I took it the wrong way, probably. His girlfriend is Thai. He lives in Canada. He had showed me kpop, but from his narration of the youtube video, kpop is great because korean girls are so hot...? HE DIDN'T SAY ANYTHING WITH IT SO I DIDN'T KNOW WHAT HE MEANT BY IT!

I commented something smartass, 'so, where are the boys?' and then, someone else comments something smartass. A bit later, this Canadian boy is whining about rich ass americans with all these swears on his own profile - and I'm not even rich, but I don't know what to say. Because he writing about all americans as if they bath in pools of money.

So I deleted my facebook. |D yup. So done with facebook. I had problems with Tali too on facebook....