nothing never going your way....
so yesterday chris decides to let me know that he might be leaving in november
instead of january... needless to say i didn't take that well... he told me he loves me
very much and that it kills him that he's leaving because i'm the perfect match for
him but he refuses to stay.. he said that there's nothing here for him any more...
i tried every thing i could to convince him to stay but he wasn't having it.... i hate
this... i finally find a guy who's perfect for me and he's leaving for 4 years.. what are
the odds right... i promised to write him as much as i could but that's such a long
time.. he says he doesn't expect me to wait... i just wish i could be with him... i wish
i was 18... this is so difficult.. we discussed some things, but we never discuss the
future and what's going to happen with us... i mean in 2 months is it all going to be
over?... i want to be with him more than any thing... me and his brother talked the
other night for a long time, and he says what it is, is that he doesn't want to get to
attached to me because he's leaving, but the problem is, is that he already is... i don't
know it's confusing and i hate it... i'm falling in love with him and i don't know what to
do... he's one of the only guys who i can see myself with years from now... we are
perfect for one another.. he keeps me on my toes.. i keep him out of trouble.. and we
keep each other happy...i just wish it didn't have to be this way... i wish he wasn't leaving..
i don't know what to do...
...
instead of january... needless to say i didn't take that well... he told me he loves me
very much and that it kills him that he's leaving because i'm the perfect match for
him but he refuses to stay.. he said that there's nothing here for him any more...
i tried every thing i could to convince him to stay but he wasn't having it.... i hate
this... i finally find a guy who's perfect for me and he's leaving for 4 years.. what are
the odds right... i promised to write him as much as i could but that's such a long
time.. he says he doesn't expect me to wait... i just wish i could be with him... i wish
i was 18... this is so difficult.. we discussed some things, but we never discuss the
future and what's going to happen with us... i mean in 2 months is it all going to be
over?... i want to be with him more than any thing... me and his brother talked the
other night for a long time, and he says what it is, is that he doesn't want to get to
attached to me because he's leaving, but the problem is, is that he already is... i don't
know it's confusing and i hate it... i'm falling in love with him and i don't know what to
do... he's one of the only guys who i can see myself with years from now... we are
perfect for one another.. he keeps me on my toes.. i keep him out of trouble.. and we
keep each other happy...i just wish it didn't have to be this way... i wish he wasn't leaving..
i don't know what to do...
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