When God doesn't make sense

[desolateangel83]

I just mentioned to lifeflowson that lately my faith has been slipping. It started with another anxiety relapse this weekend. I read the scriptures over and over again, and I hummed "A Mighty Fortress is Our God" every chance I could. Nothing could take the worry away. Then I got to thinking about these past seven years of being a Christian. "Was it all

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[imp_or]

I'll add my 2 centavos 'cause I ain't seen this thought yet.

I came to a place where I decided that if God wanted me to be good then he would have to supply the power because I don't have it. I told God about this and lo and behold a cigarette habit that I wasn't even interested in quitting slipped out of my life with no struggle, no effort. I'm saying that God knows we havn't got what it takes, I think he's just waiting for us to reach our arms up and say "Daddy, (Abba) I'm tired, carry me."

[catholic_heart]

I had the identical experience regarding quitting smoking. I made no thought whatever of quitting. It just so happened that a week or so after my conversion experience I happened to realize I wasn't smoking anymore. It's been over three years now, smoke free. Neat how that works sometimes =)

[lifeflowson]

Dude, thank your lucky stars for that, because that is rare and beautiful and I'm jealous and want to pinch you.

I want a cigarette so bad its not even funny. Oh woe is me :P

[catholic_heart]

Oh, I know. I had tried many times before then, always in vain. It's hard, I know, but hang in there! Getting through the first month will be the hardest (I'm saying this as someone who had once quit intentionally for a year and a half before going back, and then quitting again). After the first 30 days, then the real battle is those times when you convince yourself that you can smoke socially, once in a while. That will be your biggest battle after you make it through the grueling first 30 days

[lifeflowson]

Oi, yea one hour at a time seems to be my current state. Whats really ironic and/or stupid is that I hadn't smoked for like 3 years, then a year and a half ago started up again when I moved back home to where eeeveryone smoked, but I only smoked on the weekends and sometimes would go two weeks no smoke. THEN just 3 weeks ago my cousin came to visit and I smoked ALL THE TIME for three weeks...then she left, I stopped..but then started having one a night..then two a night...then decided to quit a few days ago. So its just ANNOYING that it grabbed me like that after not having grabbed me for YEARS. Soo lame!!

I don't want to talk about it anymore, all this talk of not smoking makes me want to smoke something fierce.

[lifeflowson]

Totally...he's always there and because we're so human he's always doing a lot of waiting. Good thing there are 1082197489347938840 other people in this world to take care of besides us :P