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ok, so lots happpened today, mainly between laur and amber...i duno. today was such a great day then that 1 bad thing happened, i dont wanna say anything bout that problem cuz i dont kno all of the details, and id just rather not talk about it.
well yea, like i said for the most part this day was great! school wasnt bad at all, jrotc we had PT 2day and like usualy we played dodge ball, so yea...that was violent! then health class we watched movies, history was alright we just presented projects, and then science we r watchin the day after tomorrow.....then i was walkin out of the school with amber, not knowing, josh was behind me.....he friggin kicked my ass! haha.... ran after him and tried to kick his ass but i couldnt, got close though....haha, i think things r goin good their, anyways,,, got home and went on almost a 3 mile walk......fun! and its kinda warm out but tomorrow its supposed to be cold again, sadly....but yea, josh called me 2day.....he said that he was bored, then he called laur right after me. and she says that she thinks josh is startin to like her also....and her sis agrees, btu i dont know anymore.... i decided last night and today was kinda a resherring day that i can be happy with out him in my life......yea i miss him, and its hard just bein his friend but id rather b just his friend and hide my feelings than it b weird between us, ya kno?!
matthew...well...i duno my feeling their. im scared to know. i mena i want him to be happy, but thins r always the same between us, its because he dosent liev here so nothing new can happen. gosh! i dont know....i do think my feelings r gone, i think my feelings r fading away quickly, and the only reason y i think i still have them is because i like my past with matthew, but lets face it hes NOT here! he will never be here....i cant have an actual relationship with him, yea that makes me sad but when u dont see someone for a while and the someone else comes in the picture the origional persons feelings start to fade, and he usually becomes the friend...btu i dont want to hurt him...im scared to tell him...and i dont even kno if its true.......the truth scares me.......well, i dont kno but the internet is gunna logg me off soon, and so i must go, write more later.......
somethings are left to be unknown..........
well yea, like i said for the most part this day was great! school wasnt bad at all, jrotc we had PT 2day and like usualy we played dodge ball, so yea...that was violent! then health class we watched movies, history was alright we just presented projects, and then science we r watchin the day after tomorrow.....then i was walkin out of the school with amber, not knowing, josh was behind me.....he friggin kicked my ass! haha.... ran after him and tried to kick his ass but i couldnt, got close though....haha, i think things r goin good their, anyways,,, got home and went on almost a 3 mile walk......fun! and its kinda warm out but tomorrow its supposed to be cold again, sadly....but yea, josh called me 2day.....he said that he was bored, then he called laur right after me. and she says that she thinks josh is startin to like her also....and her sis agrees, btu i dont know anymore.... i decided last night and today was kinda a resherring day that i can be happy with out him in my life......yea i miss him, and its hard just bein his friend but id rather b just his friend and hide my feelings than it b weird between us, ya kno?!
matthew...well...i duno my feeling their. im scared to know. i mena i want him to be happy, but thins r always the same between us, its because he dosent liev here so nothing new can happen. gosh! i dont know....i do think my feelings r gone, i think my feelings r fading away quickly, and the only reason y i think i still have them is because i like my past with matthew, but lets face it hes NOT here! he will never be here....i cant have an actual relationship with him, yea that makes me sad but when u dont see someone for a while and the someone else comes in the picture the origional persons feelings start to fade, and he usually becomes the friend...btu i dont want to hurt him...im scared to tell him...and i dont even kno if its true.......the truth scares me.......well, i dont kno but the internet is gunna logg me off soon, and so i must go, write more later.......
somethings are left to be unknown..........