Bittersweet Love (3/?)
Title: Bittersweet Love (3/?)
Author:
chii_mao_13
Pairing: Yamachii, Yamashi
Rating: PG
Summary: Sometimes when you've gotten what you always want, in the end you finally realize that another important thing has been sacrificed.
Note:It's still for airichan24, siklomika, fifi1048, jumpfan128, harumi01, ymchii_01, and yamachiisuki 's birthday. And now I will put hwangtinglee too.. XDD Gyaaaa it's been a year since the first chapter.. O__O I'm a slowpoke.. Please wait for this year's real birthday gift.. (><)
CHAPTER 3
More than two weeks had passed since the last time Chinen talked to Yamada. And ever since, Chinen tried to let himself realized the fact that Yamada was officially Shida’s boyfriend since Shida really confessed to Yamada after they went to the amusement park that time. The result could be expected, Yamada confessed to her that he liked her too.
“You won’t try to look for a new love?” Yuto asked while drinking his milk through a straw. They were talking in the classroom in the middle of the break time. “Maybe it will heal your heart.”
Chinen shook his head while leaning against the window. “It’s enough for now.”
“Well…” Yuto shrugged his shoulder. “Don’t you know that you’re catching many students’ attentions?”
“What do ya mean?”
“I mean, you’re quite popular here. Don’t you realize it?”
“No.” He simply answered. “You know, I can see no one but him all this time.” He forced a laugh.
“Even after he became someone else’s?”
Chinen laughed bitterly this time. “Maybe ne.” Then he released a breath. “I know I’m wrong for acting like this, but if it’s about my feelings, I can do nothing.”
“It’s true that one can be blind because of love, and it’s happening to you right now.” Yuto ruffled Chinen’s hair. “And what will you do today? There’s a club practice after school right?”
Chinen nodded. He didn’t want to resign from the club just because of it. He had thought clearly about it. When he didn’t appear in the practice these two previous weeks, anyone, including Shida, worried about him because it was rare for Chinen to skip the club practice. “I’ll come. It did nothing to my club activities. Nothing will change.”
“And how if he appeared there to see Shida?”
“Whatever. He can do what he wants to do. It’s none of my business.” Chinen answered with clear headed answer.
***
It was very nice if Chinen could really do it, because as the club practice began, he couldn’t put his concentration into it. Many times he didn’t able to return the ball. He even stumbled when there was no stone or something near his feet. Maybe it was because his body didn’t get enough food supplies these two weeks. He lost his appetite and it also made everyone on the house worried. Saaya, who knew exactly about the reason behind it, had tried to persuade him many times to cheer up again, but only responded by ‘daijoubu’ from Chinen. Chinen himself felt nothing had really changed from himself, for he felt everyday was just the same as before. The only one changed was that he didn’t have his fun time with Yamada as before.
“Chinen-kun, maybe you should go to the infirmary this time.” A voice can be heard beside him. As Chinen shook his head, he just realized that he had laid on the ground. “Don’t say that you’re okay, because it’s the fourth time you fell, and you’ve got a lot of scratches. You’ll pass out the next time you fall. I suggest you to apply some medicine to your scratches in the infirmary. After it, you can go home. I don’t want you to force yourself.” It was the coach’s voice.
Chinen used his arms to help himself rising up, and he felt a bit dizzy.
“I can do the rest.” He said.
The coach shook his head. “You’ve pushed your limit too hard. Keeping yourself to stay healthy is also one of the practices you need. You need a rest, don’t insist.” The coach said with a little threatening.
Finally Chinen gave up. “Okay, sensei. Thank you.”
“Do you need help? Maybe the doctor has returned to the hospital.” He asked again.
Chinen shook his head. “No, thank you. I can take care of this.”
“Okay. Don’t forget to stay healthy. I rely on you for the next tennis match.” The couch added.
Chinen smiled. He bowed his head, took his bag and walked away from the court, tailed by worried looks of other members. The scratches actually did nothing much to him, but he really want to rest his eyes at least for some minutes. He was lack of sleep and it caused him to feel dizzy.
The coach was right, no one was in the infirmary right now. Sitting on the edge of the bed, Chinen looked at himself. Scratches were everywhere on his body. Laying himself on the bed, Chinen ignored the wounds and tried to sleep. He just let his eyes opened with blank stare until unconsciously he fell asleep by himself.
Meanwhile on the court, Shida smiled seeing her boyfriend came to pick her up. Yamada waved his hand as Shida gave him her best smile.
“Five more minutes until break.” Shida whispered to Yamada, adding some gestures. Yamada replied by a nod, and he walked away to sit on the bench outside the court.
Landing his butt on the bench, he gazed at the court. Shida was still practicing with another girl with serious expression. She was being serious even on the regular practice, and maybe that was one of her charm point that made Yamada fell in love with her. Rolling his eyes to another court where the boys having their practice, Yamada finally felt something was missing. He didn’t see Chinen anywhere again. These last two weeks he had been told by Shida that Chinen was absent from the practice. Did it happen this week too? What had happened to him? Did he resign from the club?
Couldn’t hold his anxiety, Yamada finally asked Shida when there was 10 minutes break.
“No, he’s still in this club.” Shida answered when Yamada asked whether Chinen resigned from the club or not. “But I think I saw him fell for many times, and maybe coach asked him to go to the infirmary.” She added.
Yamada lifted his eyebrows. Was he sick or what? Yamada’s anxiety grew bigger, and therefore when the practice had begun again, he left the bench and went immediately to the infirmary. Worried about Chinen? Of course he did.
Arriving there, Yamada opened the door and drew each curtain that covered the beds. He found Chinen was sleeping on the bed next to the wall. Chinen had fallen into a deep slumber, so he didn’t realize there was someone else coming. Yamada walked and stood beside Chinen’s head. He looked at Chinen’s body and found some scratches. Clicking his tongue, Yamada walked into the doctor’s table and took some cotton wools and two bottles of alcohol and medicine. He brought it and put it on Chinen’s bed. He rinsed Chinen’s wound with the alcohol and applied the medicine cautiously. Sometimes Chinen would change his expression on his sleep to show that he felt the pain, but then turned to normal again. Finished taking care of Chinen’s wounds, Yamada opened his bag and took some bandage aids from it. He always brought it everywhere in case he got some cuts when he was outside. Carefully, he put it on Chinen’s scratches, covering it properly.
After returning the alcohol and medicine to the table, he took a chair and put it beside Chinen’s bed. Yamada sighed heavily after landing his butt.
“Hey, Chinen.” Yamada started his monolog in a weak voice albeit the fact Chinen couldn’t hear him. “You’ve been avoiding me again, huh?”
Of course there was no respond from the latter. He still laid there with closed eyes. Yamada then rested his chin in a hand while staring at Chinen’s face.
“Do you think about my feeling? We used to talk and having fun every day. But suddenly you confessed your feeling and left me dumbfounded. Do you know how shock I was that time?” He used another hand to caress Chinen’s cheek gently, afraid of awaking him. “You are my best friend, Chinen. And after I get Shida, nothing will change between us though I already knew that you like me… At least that is what I thought.”
Playing with Chinen’s hair now, Yamada’s gaze turned softer. “You know, I really miss the day we spent together. I miss talking to you, telling you what happened to me the whole day, sharing some laughs with you… To say it simply, I really miss you.” Yamada admitted. “But looking at how we interact now, the past days seemed to have passed so far away. That’s true that I’ve got what I want. But it doesn’t mean I’m willing to throw or losing the other. Back in those days, you were always there to support me when I turned back. And since the day you started helping me, I promised to myself that I’ll support you with all my best, supporting every decision you make.” Yamada sighed again. “But this time, I feel like I don’t want to support you avoiding me, walking away from my life.”
Yamada rose up from the chair without turning his gaze from Chinen. He removed some strands of hair on Chinen’s forehead. “Especially when you left this uneasy feeling on me. The more I realized the fact that you’re avoiding me, the more this uneasy feeling grow. Have you done something to me?”
Yamada didn’t realize he had leaned forward and landed his lips on Chinen’s forehead. He stayed at his position for a while before suddenly he got his conscience back. Pulling away from Chinen, Yamada covered his mouth. Nervously, he took his bag and returned the chair to the former place.
“I have to go.” He said to himself before then quickly drew the curtain that covering Chinen’s bed. Sighing in relief that there was no one entering the infirmary although Yamada carelessly let the door opened, he immediately went out of the room, and accidentally met Shida on his way.
“I’ve expected that you came to visit Chinen-kun. How is he?” Shida asked.
“Still sleeping. You’ve finished practicing?” Yamada tried to be calm as usual, pretending that nothing has happened.
Shida nodded. “The coach now is putting his focus on the boys. They are making some commotions about random things when the coach watched our practice. So the girls can go home first.”
“Jaa, going home now?” Yamada asked. Shida nodded, and they walked away from that place.
to be continued...
Nyehehehe...
Someone reminding me to update this, and I promised her to update it this week.. But I think it's a short update, because actually this chapter and the next supposed to be a single chapter, but it would be too long if i posted it as one.. O_O so i divided it into two chaps.
So, the next one supposed to be the end... supposed to..
comment = <3
=DDDDD
Author:
chii_mao_13
Pairing: Yamachii, Yamashi
Rating: PG
Summary: Sometimes when you've gotten what you always want, in the end you finally realize that another important thing has been sacrificed.
Note:It's still for airichan24, siklomika, fifi1048, jumpfan128, harumi01, ymchii_01, and yamachiisuki 's birthday. And now I will put hwangtinglee too.. XDD Gyaaaa it's been a year since the first chapter.. O__O I'm a slowpoke.. Please wait for this year's real birthday gift.. (><)
CHAPTER 3
More than two weeks had passed since the last time Chinen talked to Yamada. And ever since, Chinen tried to let himself realized the fact that Yamada was officially Shida’s boyfriend since Shida really confessed to Yamada after they went to the amusement park that time. The result could be expected, Yamada confessed to her that he liked her too.
“You won’t try to look for a new love?” Yuto asked while drinking his milk through a straw. They were talking in the classroom in the middle of the break time. “Maybe it will heal your heart.”
Chinen shook his head while leaning against the window. “It’s enough for now.”
“Well…” Yuto shrugged his shoulder. “Don’t you know that you’re catching many students’ attentions?”
“What do ya mean?”
“I mean, you’re quite popular here. Don’t you realize it?”
“No.” He simply answered. “You know, I can see no one but him all this time.” He forced a laugh.
“Even after he became someone else’s?”
Chinen laughed bitterly this time. “Maybe ne.” Then he released a breath. “I know I’m wrong for acting like this, but if it’s about my feelings, I can do nothing.”
“It’s true that one can be blind because of love, and it’s happening to you right now.” Yuto ruffled Chinen’s hair. “And what will you do today? There’s a club practice after school right?”
Chinen nodded. He didn’t want to resign from the club just because of it. He had thought clearly about it. When he didn’t appear in the practice these two previous weeks, anyone, including Shida, worried about him because it was rare for Chinen to skip the club practice. “I’ll come. It did nothing to my club activities. Nothing will change.”
“And how if he appeared there to see Shida?”
“Whatever. He can do what he wants to do. It’s none of my business.” Chinen answered with clear headed answer.
***
It was very nice if Chinen could really do it, because as the club practice began, he couldn’t put his concentration into it. Many times he didn’t able to return the ball. He even stumbled when there was no stone or something near his feet. Maybe it was because his body didn’t get enough food supplies these two weeks. He lost his appetite and it also made everyone on the house worried. Saaya, who knew exactly about the reason behind it, had tried to persuade him many times to cheer up again, but only responded by ‘daijoubu’ from Chinen. Chinen himself felt nothing had really changed from himself, for he felt everyday was just the same as before. The only one changed was that he didn’t have his fun time with Yamada as before.
“Chinen-kun, maybe you should go to the infirmary this time.” A voice can be heard beside him. As Chinen shook his head, he just realized that he had laid on the ground. “Don’t say that you’re okay, because it’s the fourth time you fell, and you’ve got a lot of scratches. You’ll pass out the next time you fall. I suggest you to apply some medicine to your scratches in the infirmary. After it, you can go home. I don’t want you to force yourself.” It was the coach’s voice.
Chinen used his arms to help himself rising up, and he felt a bit dizzy.
“I can do the rest.” He said.
The coach shook his head. “You’ve pushed your limit too hard. Keeping yourself to stay healthy is also one of the practices you need. You need a rest, don’t insist.” The coach said with a little threatening.
Finally Chinen gave up. “Okay, sensei. Thank you.”
“Do you need help? Maybe the doctor has returned to the hospital.” He asked again.
Chinen shook his head. “No, thank you. I can take care of this.”
“Okay. Don’t forget to stay healthy. I rely on you for the next tennis match.” The couch added.
Chinen smiled. He bowed his head, took his bag and walked away from the court, tailed by worried looks of other members. The scratches actually did nothing much to him, but he really want to rest his eyes at least for some minutes. He was lack of sleep and it caused him to feel dizzy.
The coach was right, no one was in the infirmary right now. Sitting on the edge of the bed, Chinen looked at himself. Scratches were everywhere on his body. Laying himself on the bed, Chinen ignored the wounds and tried to sleep. He just let his eyes opened with blank stare until unconsciously he fell asleep by himself.
Meanwhile on the court, Shida smiled seeing her boyfriend came to pick her up. Yamada waved his hand as Shida gave him her best smile.
“Five more minutes until break.” Shida whispered to Yamada, adding some gestures. Yamada replied by a nod, and he walked away to sit on the bench outside the court.
Landing his butt on the bench, he gazed at the court. Shida was still practicing with another girl with serious expression. She was being serious even on the regular practice, and maybe that was one of her charm point that made Yamada fell in love with her. Rolling his eyes to another court where the boys having their practice, Yamada finally felt something was missing. He didn’t see Chinen anywhere again. These last two weeks he had been told by Shida that Chinen was absent from the practice. Did it happen this week too? What had happened to him? Did he resign from the club?
Couldn’t hold his anxiety, Yamada finally asked Shida when there was 10 minutes break.
“No, he’s still in this club.” Shida answered when Yamada asked whether Chinen resigned from the club or not. “But I think I saw him fell for many times, and maybe coach asked him to go to the infirmary.” She added.
Yamada lifted his eyebrows. Was he sick or what? Yamada’s anxiety grew bigger, and therefore when the practice had begun again, he left the bench and went immediately to the infirmary. Worried about Chinen? Of course he did.
Arriving there, Yamada opened the door and drew each curtain that covered the beds. He found Chinen was sleeping on the bed next to the wall. Chinen had fallen into a deep slumber, so he didn’t realize there was someone else coming. Yamada walked and stood beside Chinen’s head. He looked at Chinen’s body and found some scratches. Clicking his tongue, Yamada walked into the doctor’s table and took some cotton wools and two bottles of alcohol and medicine. He brought it and put it on Chinen’s bed. He rinsed Chinen’s wound with the alcohol and applied the medicine cautiously. Sometimes Chinen would change his expression on his sleep to show that he felt the pain, but then turned to normal again. Finished taking care of Chinen’s wounds, Yamada opened his bag and took some bandage aids from it. He always brought it everywhere in case he got some cuts when he was outside. Carefully, he put it on Chinen’s scratches, covering it properly.
After returning the alcohol and medicine to the table, he took a chair and put it beside Chinen’s bed. Yamada sighed heavily after landing his butt.
“Hey, Chinen.” Yamada started his monolog in a weak voice albeit the fact Chinen couldn’t hear him. “You’ve been avoiding me again, huh?”
Of course there was no respond from the latter. He still laid there with closed eyes. Yamada then rested his chin in a hand while staring at Chinen’s face.
“Do you think about my feeling? We used to talk and having fun every day. But suddenly you confessed your feeling and left me dumbfounded. Do you know how shock I was that time?” He used another hand to caress Chinen’s cheek gently, afraid of awaking him. “You are my best friend, Chinen. And after I get Shida, nothing will change between us though I already knew that you like me… At least that is what I thought.”
Playing with Chinen’s hair now, Yamada’s gaze turned softer. “You know, I really miss the day we spent together. I miss talking to you, telling you what happened to me the whole day, sharing some laughs with you… To say it simply, I really miss you.” Yamada admitted. “But looking at how we interact now, the past days seemed to have passed so far away. That’s true that I’ve got what I want. But it doesn’t mean I’m willing to throw or losing the other. Back in those days, you were always there to support me when I turned back. And since the day you started helping me, I promised to myself that I’ll support you with all my best, supporting every decision you make.” Yamada sighed again. “But this time, I feel like I don’t want to support you avoiding me, walking away from my life.”
Yamada rose up from the chair without turning his gaze from Chinen. He removed some strands of hair on Chinen’s forehead. “Especially when you left this uneasy feeling on me. The more I realized the fact that you’re avoiding me, the more this uneasy feeling grow. Have you done something to me?”
Yamada didn’t realize he had leaned forward and landed his lips on Chinen’s forehead. He stayed at his position for a while before suddenly he got his conscience back. Pulling away from Chinen, Yamada covered his mouth. Nervously, he took his bag and returned the chair to the former place.
“I have to go.” He said to himself before then quickly drew the curtain that covering Chinen’s bed. Sighing in relief that there was no one entering the infirmary although Yamada carelessly let the door opened, he immediately went out of the room, and accidentally met Shida on his way.
“I’ve expected that you came to visit Chinen-kun. How is he?” Shida asked.
“Still sleeping. You’ve finished practicing?” Yamada tried to be calm as usual, pretending that nothing has happened.
Shida nodded. “The coach now is putting his focus on the boys. They are making some commotions about random things when the coach watched our practice. So the girls can go home first.”
“Jaa, going home now?” Yamada asked. Shida nodded, and they walked away from that place.
to be continued...
Nyehehehe...
Someone reminding me to update this, and I promised her to update it this week.. But I think it's a short update, because actually this chapter and the next supposed to be a single chapter, but it would be too long if i posted it as one.. O_O so i divided it into two chaps.
So, the next one supposed to be the end... supposed to..
comment = <3
=DDDDD