Fuck
Work is not happy making right now. This month is gonna be a hard one for me what with a 15 page senior seminar final paper due plus all my other final things, not to mention the back surgery that will have me out for the count for a week, bare minimum. Then there is also my parents birthdays, with my dad turning 60, which is a big one, plus easter, all of which are spaced thoughout the month, making me have to go back and forth from SC to sac regularly. There is also my class room work, which takes up one full day a week plus two half days a week. Also with the start of a new quarter my school schedule will be chaning, and i still dunno what it is fully yet, which makes me extreemly nervious, what with it being my last quarter and all...
Now add work to this. Work 45 minutes away. (which i really canot complain about since everyone was liek don't work there, the commute is too tough! but i was like noooo i wanna.... anyway...) Work also makes the schedule up in advance, and if something comes up, like finding out i can't work a certain day due to school schedules changing, i'm screwed.
My problem is this. i asked for march 14-24 off. this is for my finals and for my surgery. Also my dad's birthday is the 23, so i will be able to be with him on his birthday and make it back to sc without exhausting myeslf, since i will prolly still be pretty punky and weak then. anyway, the owner scheduled me to work the 23. of all days. i cannot make it. i have someone who said she could work for me, but only the mornign part, i need someone to work the last half of the day and i can't get anyone to respond to me. Also i have school all day on the 30. i'm supposed to work in cupertino on the 30. all day. one of these will have to not happen, and it will be work. no one will even reply to me about this one. its frustrating and upsetting and stressing me out, and really, i cannot handle more stress in my life right now. i saw a massage therapist on sunday and she said i was the most tense person she had ever seen. after she worked on me i was honestly scared by how much better i not only felt but was able to move. i could bend down to pick up my shoes without having to squat or sit like i used to cause i could'nt bend my waist enough to reach even with my knees bent. i could turn my head more than 45 degrees, which was shocking, how mobile my neck was. my arms and fingers were no longer going to sleep on my for no reason, my shoulders actually slopped down, rather than up towards my ears like they had before the massage, my hips actually moved when i walked, and my legs were less likely to go numb like they had been doing. (by numb i mean not tingly but i could actually hit them and not feel it numb...) my back also felt better. all of this is from stress. i am having the surgery again because my stress ruined it the first time. my methods of handeling stress are apparently to internalize it into my muscles of my waist and shoulders. i was givne a perscription for a muscel relaxant, but it made me irritable, which made me tense, which made me irritable, which made me tense which made me... you get the idea.
anyway the point of all this is that i cannpt get someone to work for me the 30 of March. the theory at work is, you either get someone to cover you or you work it. but i can't work it. and no one will cover me. so i'm screwed. this may not seem like a big deal, but it makes me cry cause i don't want to get fired or have people be mad at me. i just feel like i have been always asking for days off and never working for someone else, though honestly, few people ask for a day off, and what with school being four days a week and work generally being two or three, i really don't have a day that i can work. i also have lots of homework.
fuck. i need to go cry into a rat tummmy...
Now add work to this. Work 45 minutes away. (which i really canot complain about since everyone was liek don't work there, the commute is too tough! but i was like noooo i wanna.... anyway...) Work also makes the schedule up in advance, and if something comes up, like finding out i can't work a certain day due to school schedules changing, i'm screwed.
My problem is this. i asked for march 14-24 off. this is for my finals and for my surgery. Also my dad's birthday is the 23, so i will be able to be with him on his birthday and make it back to sc without exhausting myeslf, since i will prolly still be pretty punky and weak then. anyway, the owner scheduled me to work the 23. of all days. i cannot make it. i have someone who said she could work for me, but only the mornign part, i need someone to work the last half of the day and i can't get anyone to respond to me. Also i have school all day on the 30. i'm supposed to work in cupertino on the 30. all day. one of these will have to not happen, and it will be work. no one will even reply to me about this one. its frustrating and upsetting and stressing me out, and really, i cannot handle more stress in my life right now. i saw a massage therapist on sunday and she said i was the most tense person she had ever seen. after she worked on me i was honestly scared by how much better i not only felt but was able to move. i could bend down to pick up my shoes without having to squat or sit like i used to cause i could'nt bend my waist enough to reach even with my knees bent. i could turn my head more than 45 degrees, which was shocking, how mobile my neck was. my arms and fingers were no longer going to sleep on my for no reason, my shoulders actually slopped down, rather than up towards my ears like they had before the massage, my hips actually moved when i walked, and my legs were less likely to go numb like they had been doing. (by numb i mean not tingly but i could actually hit them and not feel it numb...) my back also felt better. all of this is from stress. i am having the surgery again because my stress ruined it the first time. my methods of handeling stress are apparently to internalize it into my muscles of my waist and shoulders. i was givne a perscription for a muscel relaxant, but it made me irritable, which made me tense, which made me irritable, which made me tense which made me... you get the idea.
anyway the point of all this is that i cannpt get someone to work for me the 30 of March. the theory at work is, you either get someone to cover you or you work it. but i can't work it. and no one will cover me. so i'm screwed. this may not seem like a big deal, but it makes me cry cause i don't want to get fired or have people be mad at me. i just feel like i have been always asking for days off and never working for someone else, though honestly, few people ask for a day off, and what with school being four days a week and work generally being two or three, i really don't have a day that i can work. i also have lots of homework.
fuck. i need to go cry into a rat tummmy...