Apr 20, 2006 22:25
im super excited. i got a call this morning from a local producer that wants me to lay down some piano tracks for him. He works with an organization that uses music and concerts to raise money to grow and buy food for the homeless and impoverished families. I meet with them all on monday and get to watch the singers record, but im not sure if i have to record then too. ??? hmmm. however, In turn (though i would have done it for nothing!), he is recording and producing some of my songs for me. so, monday... im nervous and excited.
i've always wanted to find a way to make my music worth something. not fame or anything like that, but helping people. i really enjoy teaching for that reason because im taking my passion and sharing it with others in a way that keeps giving. it made me so high to see that i could give a child the gift to read and play music. so, i really appreciate this opportunity.
i find that i dont do enough to help others. It seems like i sometimes get so absorbed i my own plans that i forge there are million of people that need someone to care. Its so easy to become selfish and numb in our society. i get scared all the time ill become one of "them,". too cool to care. too many plans to help someone else. too perfect to be devastated or feel empathy. i never want to become so drown out by my own selfishness that i forget what my really inner-self wants. its hard! maybe its because im a 20-something and all 20-sthings are tat way. i wouldn't accept that as an excuse anyways, so i suppose that theory doesn't matter at all. its not as much true as it is a copout.