Gah
I was rewoken up by a foot fetishist this am....he's a younger man even ......Izzy that is. He has a thing for my toes. He's a funny cat anyways , he's NOT a snuggler , but he loves to be petted.....and he a Mike Tyson meow.
The visit with my mom was ok.....she claims none of my sibs told her anything, but I have my doubts that a mother/child bond kicked in and she knew I was troubled.I really think my relationship with her is why I have such a hard time with Dan's mom.......and years ago Neals Mom ( Neal is Ryan's dad, whom has never seen Ryan) . Neal's mom resented the fact that I wanted her little boy to grow up. Plus I wasn't jewish . Dan's mom just wanted me to be like her.....I'm sure Dan LOVED that idea.....I just wanted to be a Brown woman on MY terms....Audrey lives to guilt people into doing what SHE wants. She doesn't agree with how I do things with the boys , but NOW it's even worse. I did the nitpicky thing with my kids when they were smaller ...they were miserable. They are generally neat ( they ARE boys yanno)....they wear what they want, within reason . They eat fairly well, because let's face it....they are somewhat picky kids. They do well in school, and have friends. So what am I doing wrong here? On the other hand Chrises mom is ok with me, I've only met her once , and she seems to be alot like me.Chrises backround is alot like mine , aside from the domestic violence , so with his mom she understands the whole ex, child support , etc etc thing. She isn't a clingy mom , since Chris has moved alot in the past few years, but shes still supportive of him. We don't really hear alot from her , I assume that's because she knows he's ok with me.She doesn't strike as a manipulator, which is good, since Chris takes no shite from anyone. I just hope I'm not one of those moms when my kids get older. Right now , i'm on the same wavelenght as Ryan's ex gf...haha.....i have alot in common with a 13 year old.
Audrey will be getting more pissed as time goes on , just fyi...Ryan asked me if I could buy him all black clothes for school this year muhahaha....I always KNEW ryan was going to be my moper!He is gonna be the tortured artist type with the soulful eyes.....you just watch! Jay asked if he could dye his hair black too.....oh boy....i can see this now.Is there any wonder why I love these kids??
It's gonna be hotter then hades today , I think I may have to just stay in pjs and watch movies with the kids. I'm sure I'll be on again later.......there's alot going thru my mind right now about all the other stuff....I know how it sounded when I said "lucky to have two men in my life" but thats not exactly what I meant . Just so you know.
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The visit with my mom was ok.....she claims none of my sibs told her anything, but I have my doubts that a mother/child bond kicked in and she knew I was troubled.I really think my relationship with her is why I have such a hard time with Dan's mom.......and years ago Neals Mom ( Neal is Ryan's dad, whom has never seen Ryan) . Neal's mom resented the fact that I wanted her little boy to grow up. Plus I wasn't jewish . Dan's mom just wanted me to be like her.....I'm sure Dan LOVED that idea.....I just wanted to be a Brown woman on MY terms....Audrey lives to guilt people into doing what SHE wants. She doesn't agree with how I do things with the boys , but NOW it's even worse. I did the nitpicky thing with my kids when they were smaller ...they were miserable. They are generally neat ( they ARE boys yanno)....they wear what they want, within reason . They eat fairly well, because let's face it....they are somewhat picky kids. They do well in school, and have friends. So what am I doing wrong here? On the other hand Chrises mom is ok with me, I've only met her once , and she seems to be alot like me.Chrises backround is alot like mine , aside from the domestic violence , so with his mom she understands the whole ex, child support , etc etc thing. She isn't a clingy mom , since Chris has moved alot in the past few years, but shes still supportive of him. We don't really hear alot from her , I assume that's because she knows he's ok with me.She doesn't strike as a manipulator, which is good, since Chris takes no shite from anyone. I just hope I'm not one of those moms when my kids get older. Right now , i'm on the same wavelenght as Ryan's ex gf...haha.....i have alot in common with a 13 year old.
Audrey will be getting more pissed as time goes on , just fyi...Ryan asked me if I could buy him all black clothes for school this year muhahaha....I always KNEW ryan was going to be my moper!He is gonna be the tortured artist type with the soulful eyes.....you just watch! Jay asked if he could dye his hair black too.....oh boy....i can see this now.Is there any wonder why I love these kids??
It's gonna be hotter then hades today , I think I may have to just stay in pjs and watch movies with the kids. I'm sure I'll be on again later.......there's alot going thru my mind right now about all the other stuff....I know how it sounded when I said "lucky to have two men in my life" but thats not exactly what I meant . Just so you know.
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