I swear NY is the most beautiful place this time of year. And what could be better than being here with the person who makes me happiest? Oh right, NOTHING. But unfortunately I have to leave soon cause they are sending me to Europe to promote Santana's album, which would be fine except freezing really isn't any fun if I can't stick my hands up ( Read more... )

This is late but I am thankful that Justin's tongue was too busy occupying my mouth for me to eat and become obese today. I swear that took me five minutes to type correctly sdfsdgdf
I am going to let him molest me some more, bye

p.s. SOMEONE BUY KELLY CLARKSON SOME RITALIN. Her boyfriend gets her too excited

I have been working like crazy. I finished up most of the album and no, I am not turning heavy metal. Although if Justin wanted me to do so, I could pierce every place on my face and start wearing black lipstick and fishnets constantly. But more importantly than all of this, "Without You" is probably going to be justincase's next single which means ( Read more... )

So I took the latest flight back to LA because I actually have to WORK. Hello jet lag. I'm so tired to the point where everytime I yawn, my eyes severely water. sdfsfdsg I am like Chris Carrabba minus the whining. Unless of course you all want me to whine about how I miss Justin already because I could, you know. Sarah needs to buy him a blowup ( Read more... )

Hey, Christmas is coming early this year for JC. I am buying him the complete collection of Dashboard cds so he has something to whine and cry to, a porn movie (what kind do you prefer?) so he can masturbate and release his pent up frustration and anger, and a pair of pliers to remove that stick wedged up his ass (or wait, is that a penis ( Read more... )

I am so fucking tired. Yes, fucking. I will probably have to grab a pillow off one of the shelves in Wal-Mart while I'm there and go to sleep while Hannah is off looking for a muzzle. I don't want any fans to notice me so maybe I will also grab a pink halter top to disguise myself. I bet that would scare Justin poor him I wish I were still in his ( Read more... )

The day that I left Justin, I didn't want him to see me cry so I sobbed like Chris Carrabba the entire time on the plane. I don't know how many times I was asked if I wanted water, like that is supposed to help when I am missing my boyfriend. I should sue that airline. After that, I called him a million and a half times every hour. But then I ( Read more... )

The other night at a benefit that honored the lovely and talented Britney Spears, I performed a new song called "Are You Happy Now?" It's not really like anything I've ever done before. I have a feeling it may be compared to early Alanis Morissette songs. It's um, harder and more rock-oriented. I guess that's because I am going to be working with ( Read more... )

When I bought an apartment here, I thought it would give me a place to call home except I don't feel at home very much at all right now. I feel lonely instead. I know I'm too impatient. The worse moments of life are spent waiting, especially when you have this second by second countdown to the day you're looking forward to. I guess after the 7th, I ( Read more... )

I spent way too much time reading all my old entries tonight. I didn't believe it was possible to be in love with someone without also having to deal with heartbreak and pain. I thought being a relationship meant being put down and feeling shitty all the time and just accepting it because you love the person. It's odd to have such a warped and ( Read more... )