ill tell you where i lost all control after i gain it
the winds blowing in bursts through my room.
i have the shade down because i dont want any light in.
but the window open because i feel too closed in.
im wearing leggings, yoga pants and baggy sweats.
sock boots,
under armour, a long sleeved T and a sweater.
and fingerless gloves, and a head scarf, all wrapped up in a fleece blanket.
i cant escape the cold.
i lit a big candel to try to warm the rooms feel
it didnt work, but i like the flickering.
my legs feel like jelly.
my doctor called and said he wants me to come in tomorrow, right during my psych class,
i cant do that, i wont get behind.
the nurse sounded mad, and i felt kind of bad, but im paying for an education
i can drink coffee and pop pills and walk around for a few days longer.
i took my temp. 95.7
it was 100.2 this morning.
iv eatten 4 saltines today and drink a powerade zip and lots of green tea.
my boyfriend wants me to go to the hospital.
i wont do it.
i am not doing the stomach tube during the week and missing classes.
its bad enough i missed today,
i feel like my minds a big put of stew
and i keep finding random things in the stew.