The Absense of the Call
On Sunday (4th) I didn't double date like I hoped, but I did go to the movies anyway... with my sister. :P We saw Skeleton Key. It wasn't scary at all and the ending was really good. It was neat when I figured the mystery out.
Haven't been up to much, just been going to classes, same old same old. Right now I'm watching "So You Think You Can Dance" with Kiyana. Snow was eliminated!!! URGH!! It's so upsetting because Snow deserved to stay much longer. I hate how they nominate couples, even if one is superb etc.
And gah! Why does Martell never call meeeeeeeeeee... I'm not going to call him for a week and see how long it takes for him to notice something's up. I give him a minimum of a week before he decides to call me to check up on me. I would be so surprised if he calls/texts me before a week is up.
But urgh, why is it so hard to call your girlfriend and talk to her for 5 minutes a day?! Why the FUCK is that so difficult? Someone please explain that to me, that after talking to him about it SEVERAL times, he stil doesn't do it even though he says he will and that he will sincerely try. I'm sick of bringing it up with him, and I don't want to stress him out because he's smoking shit now, but what about MY stress from his lack of interest in what I'm doing and how I'm doing?! I want to feel if I'm having a bad day, I can call him and he will answer the phone, or at least CALL ME BACK. And I don't feel that at all. Now when I call him, I can EXPECT him not to pick up and EXPECT not to hear back from him. Whenever he calls me back, I always get so surprised, but always so happy.
5 Minutes... that's all I want. That's all I NEED.
*sigh* But I'm trying to be patient, I care for him so much. Phoenix ends for him in October so hopefully things will be better then.
But gosh, my emotions are like a roller coaster. Just last entry I was bubbling over with happiness lol But hmm, I believe me and Martell will be alright. It's just a lot of stormy rain right now, but in the end we'll pull out our umbrella. :)
Haven't been up to much, just been going to classes, same old same old. Right now I'm watching "So You Think You Can Dance" with Kiyana. Snow was eliminated!!! URGH!! It's so upsetting because Snow deserved to stay much longer. I hate how they nominate couples, even if one is superb etc.
And gah! Why does Martell never call meeeeeeeeeee... I'm not going to call him for a week and see how long it takes for him to notice something's up. I give him a minimum of a week before he decides to call me to check up on me. I would be so surprised if he calls/texts me before a week is up.
But urgh, why is it so hard to call your girlfriend and talk to her for 5 minutes a day?! Why the FUCK is that so difficult? Someone please explain that to me, that after talking to him about it SEVERAL times, he stil doesn't do it even though he says he will and that he will sincerely try. I'm sick of bringing it up with him, and I don't want to stress him out because he's smoking shit now, but what about MY stress from his lack of interest in what I'm doing and how I'm doing?! I want to feel if I'm having a bad day, I can call him and he will answer the phone, or at least CALL ME BACK. And I don't feel that at all. Now when I call him, I can EXPECT him not to pick up and EXPECT not to hear back from him. Whenever he calls me back, I always get so surprised, but always so happy.
5 Minutes... that's all I want. That's all I NEED.
*sigh* But I'm trying to be patient, I care for him so much. Phoenix ends for him in October so hopefully things will be better then.
But gosh, my emotions are like a roller coaster. Just last entry I was bubbling over with happiness lol But hmm, I believe me and Martell will be alright. It's just a lot of stormy rain right now, but in the end we'll pull out our umbrella. :)