decisions
i ate a lot yesterday. i don't want to talk about it.
i'm having a really hard time trying to decide where to live next year. i'm a freshman in college and did random roommate this year and ended up with this awesome girl. myself, my roommate, and two other girls are planning to live together on campus next year. we've narrowed it down to two choices. one is a historic house. (i live in charleston, sc, my college is over two hundred years old and the city is older than that) these are historical houses that are typically off campus, but are still on campus housing. the one we have chosen is basically the same as a dorm room, only it has a full kitchen and a bigger bathroom. our other choice is called warren place. these are basically apartments that are off-campus but considered campus housing. we would live four girls in one apartment, each with our own room (with a double-bed) and two bathrooms per apartment. the catch is that its about $3000 extra a year, and you still have to bring alcohol in in bookbags instead of just carrying it in.
i want the second choice. i don't think i can share a room with someone for another year and not lose my mind. and it's not that i don't have a great roommate, i really lucked out. it's just that after a certain amount of time the other person's habits really start to grate on your nerves. not to mention that you have to kind of live on exactly the same schedule. go to sleep at the same time, study at the same time, etc. and that can really get to be annoying. we did a majority rules thing and basically ended up putting the historic house as our first choice. i, however, just know that theres no way i can live there next year.
i want to tell everyone that even if we can get in the house i am going to live in warren place anyways, but i feel guilty for fucking everyone over. if i choose to pull out, they will be stuck with a random roommate, someone who might not be cool and would defeat the purpose of living in the house in the first place. i just don't feel like i should choose to live somewhere i don't want to just because it's what other people want. i also don't want everyone else to change their minds just because of me.
i know this doesn't sound like a big deal, but it's basically just me putting everyone else's wants and needs in front of my own, and trying to please everyone. pretty much no matter which one i choose i will either be unhappy or come off as a huge bitch.
i'm having a really hard time trying to decide where to live next year. i'm a freshman in college and did random roommate this year and ended up with this awesome girl. myself, my roommate, and two other girls are planning to live together on campus next year. we've narrowed it down to two choices. one is a historic house. (i live in charleston, sc, my college is over two hundred years old and the city is older than that) these are historical houses that are typically off campus, but are still on campus housing. the one we have chosen is basically the same as a dorm room, only it has a full kitchen and a bigger bathroom. our other choice is called warren place. these are basically apartments that are off-campus but considered campus housing. we would live four girls in one apartment, each with our own room (with a double-bed) and two bathrooms per apartment. the catch is that its about $3000 extra a year, and you still have to bring alcohol in in bookbags instead of just carrying it in.
i want the second choice. i don't think i can share a room with someone for another year and not lose my mind. and it's not that i don't have a great roommate, i really lucked out. it's just that after a certain amount of time the other person's habits really start to grate on your nerves. not to mention that you have to kind of live on exactly the same schedule. go to sleep at the same time, study at the same time, etc. and that can really get to be annoying. we did a majority rules thing and basically ended up putting the historic house as our first choice. i, however, just know that theres no way i can live there next year.
i want to tell everyone that even if we can get in the house i am going to live in warren place anyways, but i feel guilty for fucking everyone over. if i choose to pull out, they will be stuck with a random roommate, someone who might not be cool and would defeat the purpose of living in the house in the first place. i just don't feel like i should choose to live somewhere i don't want to just because it's what other people want. i also don't want everyone else to change their minds just because of me.
i know this doesn't sound like a big deal, but it's basically just me putting everyone else's wants and needs in front of my own, and trying to please everyone. pretty much no matter which one i choose i will either be unhappy or come off as a huge bitch.