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fuck bulimia. it sucks because purging isn't something i even think about anymore. it's just something i do. and it's hard because i live in a dorm room and i have a roommate and i have to strategically pick times to purge. if i don't get the oppurtunity, i get SO irritated and angry. i don't feel like i have a disease, or that anything is wrong with me. i also know that the only reason i feel this way is because my life has been this way for so long. i guess i didn't even realize how long this had been going on until recently. the first time i purged was in EIGHTH GRADE. i am now a freshman in college. bulimia has slipped in and out of my life during that period of time, but it's not slipping away any time soon. it sucks because i know this disease will never get me thin, and that's the whole point. frustration...