New Chapter
So tomorrow Im officially on my own for good.
Im all packed and ready. Got my money in the bank, got my loan all set up, got my credit card all set up. Im standing in the doorway and Im wondering if I should be looking back at the memories. Or if I should be afraid of being alone. Im looking forward to solitude, but Im seriously missing my sisters. Since they got married its like a chapter of my life closed. Im glad Carol understands this transition. Im very grateful for her ability to, understand. I cant believe shes gone. I still cant believe I cant go see her. Im sorry Carol, its just a big change. Very big change.
Ive been thinking alot here lately, and I think that I know what to do. Im going to get settled, and then Im going to move. I cant stay here much longer. The memories are too thick. I've asked myself if I really need to move. If I need to allow that great of a change. Sometimes, you just know when you're ready. Ya know? I know in my heart that I cant stay the same. I cant allow things around me to change and not change along with them. I've grown up. Plain and simple. Im not 15 anymore. Im not a child anymore. Theres nothing here that I can hold onto anymore.
I just dont know how I should go about leaving. My family, my friends. How do I leave them? But how do I stay? I get the feeling that Im going to be crying my first night in my place. :) But its ok. I need time to think and reflect.
Im all packed and ready. Got my money in the bank, got my loan all set up, got my credit card all set up. Im standing in the doorway and Im wondering if I should be looking back at the memories. Or if I should be afraid of being alone. Im looking forward to solitude, but Im seriously missing my sisters. Since they got married its like a chapter of my life closed. Im glad Carol understands this transition. Im very grateful for her ability to, understand. I cant believe shes gone. I still cant believe I cant go see her. Im sorry Carol, its just a big change. Very big change.
Ive been thinking alot here lately, and I think that I know what to do. Im going to get settled, and then Im going to move. I cant stay here much longer. The memories are too thick. I've asked myself if I really need to move. If I need to allow that great of a change. Sometimes, you just know when you're ready. Ya know? I know in my heart that I cant stay the same. I cant allow things around me to change and not change along with them. I've grown up. Plain and simple. Im not 15 anymore. Im not a child anymore. Theres nothing here that I can hold onto anymore.
I just dont know how I should go about leaving. My family, my friends. How do I leave them? But how do I stay? I get the feeling that Im going to be crying my first night in my place. :) But its ok. I need time to think and reflect.