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Down to three days left. I placed an order today for a 2-pound bag of apricot seeds, which I'm pretty sure is like 4 times the dosage needed to actually cause cyanide poisoning. Better safe than sorry though amirite? Still uncertain if I can pull it off, but I'll have the means either way. So there's that.
Jill almost killed herself last night. Tried to OD. It hurt bad but not as bad as if I wasn't on my meds. I cried myself to sleep but woke just feeling morose. She finally messaged me around noon and confirmed she was alive, which was a relief, but she's still being very despondent and is steeped in self-loathing. I don't know what to do, really. I love her and I'm glad she's still alive but I have no idea how to help her out of her misery.
Still no job. Still no money. Still no prospects. I've just been sitting around in a numb stupor gaming and talking to Jill or Cory. Sleeping whenever it actually happens, which hasn't been a lot. I don't seem to have the energy to do anything else.
Bleeeh. I wonder if the stupid apricot seeds will even show up by my birthday. I dunno. Don't really care. Raugh.
Jill almost killed herself last night. Tried to OD. It hurt bad but not as bad as if I wasn't on my meds. I cried myself to sleep but woke just feeling morose. She finally messaged me around noon and confirmed she was alive, which was a relief, but she's still being very despondent and is steeped in self-loathing. I don't know what to do, really. I love her and I'm glad she's still alive but I have no idea how to help her out of her misery.
Still no job. Still no money. Still no prospects. I've just been sitting around in a numb stupor gaming and talking to Jill or Cory. Sleeping whenever it actually happens, which hasn't been a lot. I don't seem to have the energy to do anything else.
Bleeeh. I wonder if the stupid apricot seeds will even show up by my birthday. I dunno. Don't really care. Raugh.