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9 days. Down to the last week. I dunno if I can go through with it, though. Especially now that I'm back on my meds; much of the panic has subsided into a morose sort of acceptance. Things seem to be back on track with Jill for the most part but I haven't heard from her all day today except for one message: "I messed up." I've no idea what she means or what might have happened but she hasn't responded to anything I've sent her. Just last week I would've been in a delirious fit about this, but with the medicine I'm just kind of concerned and worried. I hope she's okay, but it's like... if she's not, what can I do? I've no way of knowing, really. Still no jobs either. Prospects are no dimmer or brighter. Just hoping, hoping, hoping.
Regardless of whether I wuss out come the ninth, I've found a method that would work wonderfully for me. Blades make me too giddy to work correctly and I'm too chickenshit to use a noose or a gun, but cyanide on the other hand... "Oh but where are you gonna get cyanide?" you may ask. Well LJ, cyanide is found in Apricot and Apple seeds! And you can buy'em buy the pound in health stores as a snack. Crazy, right? All you'd have to do is eat enough that you get a lethal dosage of cyanide in your system and boom, you'll be dead in minutes. That's what I'm talkin' about right there. Up and outta this mortal coil while SNACKING! Hehehe. :p
But that's then and now's now. I still have time to sort out the muck. Sorta. Kinda. Whatever. God, I love my medicine. Everything is just so "whatever" with it. Even if I'm still jobless and what I have with Jill is broken by the ninth, I might just be so apathetic I'm like "meh, I'll off myself later." Gahahah. We'll see. As for now I'm gonna go play some Zelda. I'll keep you posted LJ.
Regardless of whether I wuss out come the ninth, I've found a method that would work wonderfully for me. Blades make me too giddy to work correctly and I'm too chickenshit to use a noose or a gun, but cyanide on the other hand... "Oh but where are you gonna get cyanide?" you may ask. Well LJ, cyanide is found in Apricot and Apple seeds! And you can buy'em buy the pound in health stores as a snack. Crazy, right? All you'd have to do is eat enough that you get a lethal dosage of cyanide in your system and boom, you'll be dead in minutes. That's what I'm talkin' about right there. Up and outta this mortal coil while SNACKING! Hehehe. :p
But that's then and now's now. I still have time to sort out the muck. Sorta. Kinda. Whatever. God, I love my medicine. Everything is just so "whatever" with it. Even if I'm still jobless and what I have with Jill is broken by the ninth, I might just be so apathetic I'm like "meh, I'll off myself later." Gahahah. We'll see. As for now I'm gonna go play some Zelda. I'll keep you posted LJ.