Love, My Love; My Little Secret
Genre: Romance, Angst
Type: Song ficlet
Characters: Jung Yunho
Pairings: Yunho-centric
Rating: PG-13
Synopsis: Yunho reviews the changes in his relationship, and briefly wondered if it is just a phase, or a tell-tale sign ;; Part of the Love, My Love Song Ficlet series
A/N: Based on the song 'Secret' by Davichi. Eng credits to: kakakcashier.blogspot.com
Love, My Love; My Little Secret
"Hmm? Alright, I'll be there. Yes, I love you too..."
Since some time, since some point
Even when I was holding you, I felt alone
My footsteps to meet you were heavy
And sometimes I missed being alone
The bus was pack with noise and people, but Yunho manage to shut the non-ending chattering with clouded thoughts. He rested his head on his palm, looking out the window with disinterest.
They've been together for almost two years. Not short but definitely not long enough. Yunho tapped his fingers against the glass window, watching as the familiar streaks of colors flashing by the window, the path that he has taken at least once a month, and as frequent as every single day at one point in time.
He yawned, last night's skype-talk with a childhood friend in a long while taking its toll on him at the very moment, and briefly calculated the extra hours of sleep he could have had if he hadn't been on the bus.
Just like everything changes,
Even our love that seemed would be forever,
The more time passes, the further we got from the beginning
It turned into a different color, a different scent
"Autumn is my favourite season."
The raven gave a little laugh at his lover's randomness, entertaining him nonetheless, "oh, so why is that?"
"Because it's the most beautiful season."
Yunho looked at the brunette's bright smile, merely shrugging in response. He looked at the surroundings, feeling the cool air, taking in the orange leaves that decorated the place. In the corner of his eye, he spotted a tree already void of its lush leaves, already prepared to welcome the cold winter with its thin, bare branches.
"Beautiful, it is," Yunho agreed, "beautiful."
* You don't know- I hope you don't know
I can't tell you my secretive heart
In case you figure it out,
I tell you I love you, I tell you I miss you as I smile
It's just like any other day. Catching the latest movie in town, popping by the nearby arcade for a few rounds of shooting games, dinner at a restaurant with table-full of food. Sometimes they trade in the noise of the city with the serenity of the nature, listening to the sound of waves as they lean in the comfort of each other; sometimes Yunho brings his lover on a trip up the mountain, enjoying the lush green while escaping the dull skyscrapers in Seoul. It's a routine of mix and match, but like the slot machine, it's always fixed.
And sometimes Yunho wondered how it'd be like, changing a slot machine for a change?
Other times Yunho wondered if his lover has ever thought of it as well; ever knew what he thinks of from time to time.
But when the brunette rests his head on his lap during his night over, Yunho puts away those thoughts, at least for the time being.
You greet me warmly and smile
You always warmly look at me
I can't do that since my heart is different than before
One day seems so long
"Sorry I'm late!"
Yunho pushed off from the wall he was leaning on, taking in the sight of his lover, face flushed from running and when he smiled at him -- that gorgeous smile -- Yunho's heart melt a little yet again. He smiled back, instinctively pushing a streak of loose hair behind his ears, while he quietly linked their hands together.
"Sorry, caught in a traffic!"
His beloved beamed at him, and Yunho gave a light smile in response. "It's alright," he said a little absentmindedly, before turning round towards the cinemas, "we better hurry, or we'd be late."
He didn't catch the pout on the brunette's face, which slowly turned into a crestfallen frown.
* You don't know- I hope you don't know
I can't tell you my secretive heart
In case you figure it out,
I tell you I love you, I tell you I miss you as I smile
"Yunho?"
Yunho hummed in response, eyes fluttering to a close.
"Do you...still love me?" a whisper, unsure and Yunho could already see his lover's worried gaze without even having to open his eyes, even though he still did. He turned around, the brunette taking the chance to barrow into his arms, holding on to him, arms trembling in a desperate plea.
"...Of course I love you," the raven replied, reaching down to kiss away his lover's fears, "I love you."
And after a long while, did the two finally fell into deep slumber, one worn out from his silent sobs, the other from his never-ending thoughts.
Please teach me- is this love as well?
Or is this just a phase?
Don't forgive me for being like this
Did love stop? Am I a bad woman?
"Hello? I'm a little busy today. Yea, see you. Love you too."
* You don't know- I hope you don't know
I can't tell you my secretive heart
In case you figure it out,
I tell you I love you, I tell you I miss you as I smile
Loud music and the smell of smoke filled the darkly lit area. The loud bass sound booming as people groove to the beat, rubbing against each other more than ever.
"Hey there~"
Yunho turned as a pair of silky white hands wrapped themselves around his shoulders, smirking as he gripped the woman's hips in response, dancing to the music. He didn't recall who initiated it, and he partly blamed the alcohol he had just moments before, but soon he wasn't just swaying in time to the beat; his lips seeking out woman's as both battled for control with their tongues, him winning the battle a tad too easy as he swallowed the woman's moans, his hips grinding onto the other.
"-Yunho?"
He broke apart, annoyed at whoever that interrupted, only to stare straight into the eyes of his boyfriend. He opened his mouth to say something, but didn't have the chance to when the other bolted off, the flash of hurt and evident on his face.
Yunho stared, instantly pushing the drunk woman away in response. But instead of chasing after his lover, he returned to the bar table, and ordered another drink, downing it in one-shot, feeling the burn on his throat slowly replacing the light pang of pain in his chest.
I'm sorry for my cooled heart
END
A/N: Guess who I was thinking of for Yunho's lover? (hint: there were two different people)
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