I can't help but read this....
It makes me cry everytime i look at it.. and i start to tear at the title now.... but i still read it.. and i cry all thru it...
'Morning Tears'...
Every morning right before I wake up- I feel you next to me. I can feel your sweet breath on my lips, and smell you hair on my face. I try to keep my eyes closed forever, because I know when they open all they will see is the empty space next to me. Your presence lingers here, somewhere in between my dreams.
I see you every now and then, even though I tell them that I don’t. I see you holding me until I drift asleep, I see you smiling in the rays of sun that fill my room, and I see you crying when I watch the rain fall from the sky. Sometimes I cry with you, even though you tell me to be strong. And when the rain pours down I cant tell if my face is wet from your tears or mine.
I remember those nights when Id watch you sleep, desperately trying to absorb your essence in every detail. Like the way you laugh while you dream, or how you roll over onto me just to make sure I’m still there. I tried so hard never to close my eyes, afraid you might not be there when they opened again.
The days seemed to pass in seconds when you were there. A blur of breakfasts never eaten, and sunsets never watched. I just couldn’t stop looking at you. Too scared to blink- I never wanted to wake up- you were my dream, and I didn’t need to sleep to see you.
We loved the days, because they were new- like us. There was no time. I was perpetually lost in your eyes. And the only forever I knew was when you were gone. There were days when I would recall what it felt like to be alive. And you were there. Always there. Swimming in my mind, and keeping me afloat. I drowned in my thoughts without you. You were the air that I breathed, and the spirit that I knew was inside. You helped me to remember myself in all that I do. You were my soul that kept me living.
The days came and left with a wink and a smile from the great creator. I couldn’t tell if I was happy or sad, because there was no sadness to know. My emotions were just a blur of smiles. The sun was always shinning, and you were there to show me. You helped me to understand the world- a concept completely lost to me, because you were my world. My everything.
And then all at once time came rushing back to me. And I woke up. There was an emptiness inside unlike I had ever felt before. I hadn’t even opened my eyes yet, but I knew what they would see-and I wept. Too despondent for tears, I cried harder then the rain. My sun was gone, and I was left in darkness. Alone with thoughts beyond regret, and angry with God for letting me know that you were once there. I lay in a vacant bed- cursing the world I was forced to meet. You were gone, and I was there. I hated you for so long, with every fiber of my existence-which seemed so worthless now. I died that morning when I woke up and you weren’t beside me, and I’ve died everyday since.
But I see you now sometimes, in the twinkle of an eye, and the shinning of a star. I see now, that I’ve grown closer to you everyday that I’ve lived without you. I once heard that separation makes you love more, but if there were a way to love more than I am, then I could not fathom it. I miss you more then you will ever know. I miss the way you always caught me gazing through you. I miss the way you tickled my arm while you slept- without knowing. And I miss the way you loved me, and made me feel like every moment was a lifetime. I will always be here, and you will always be there. I hate when you help me understand. I will live my life to dream, and always cry when it rains.
You are my now, my then, and my never was…
The Ultimate Politics Survey
Describe your stance on:
Abortion: choice.. i would never..
Affirmative Action: *thibit*
Age of Consent: AFTER PUBERTY!!!
Animal Testing: shoot the bastards who do it!!!
Death Penalty: Be my guest
Downloading Music/Movies: WOO HOO!! FREE TUNES!!
Drug Decriminalization: *chink eyed* pssst...wanna hit?!
Factory Farming: *thibit*
Free Trade: eh...ok..w/e... trade me your car
Funding of Arts: HELL YEH!!! *bows* ALL HAIL ART!!!
Gay Marriage: what the fuck do you think?!?! IM A LESBIAN!!!
Gun Control: guns don't kill ppl..... we need postal control...
Immigration: GO HOME!!! theres to many right now...
Hardcore Pornography: o0o0o0o0 hehehe o.0 *drools*
Human Cloning: ..can i have a clone of my fav actress for my bedroom?
Miltary Draft: I'm gay with Mental problems..hehe..draft me if you dare...
Minimum Wage: only if it goes up... to oh..idk... SOMETHING THAT CAN BE LIVED ON!!!
Prostitution: ...define 'prostitution'.....
School Vouchers: free lunch rules...
Taxes: suck my left nut....
United Nations: no such thing..they'll all backstab each other if its to there benifit...
Universal Health Care: HAHAHHA... oh ur serious....
War on Terrorism: fight what goes on in our own country b4 you start on another project...
Welfare: for some..ok...others...GET A JOB!!!
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'Morning Tears'...
Every morning right before I wake up- I feel you next to me. I can feel your sweet breath on my lips, and smell you hair on my face. I try to keep my eyes closed forever, because I know when they open all they will see is the empty space next to me. Your presence lingers here, somewhere in between my dreams.
I see you every now and then, even though I tell them that I don’t. I see you holding me until I drift asleep, I see you smiling in the rays of sun that fill my room, and I see you crying when I watch the rain fall from the sky. Sometimes I cry with you, even though you tell me to be strong. And when the rain pours down I cant tell if my face is wet from your tears or mine.
I remember those nights when Id watch you sleep, desperately trying to absorb your essence in every detail. Like the way you laugh while you dream, or how you roll over onto me just to make sure I’m still there. I tried so hard never to close my eyes, afraid you might not be there when they opened again.
The days seemed to pass in seconds when you were there. A blur of breakfasts never eaten, and sunsets never watched. I just couldn’t stop looking at you. Too scared to blink- I never wanted to wake up- you were my dream, and I didn’t need to sleep to see you.
We loved the days, because they were new- like us. There was no time. I was perpetually lost in your eyes. And the only forever I knew was when you were gone. There were days when I would recall what it felt like to be alive. And you were there. Always there. Swimming in my mind, and keeping me afloat. I drowned in my thoughts without you. You were the air that I breathed, and the spirit that I knew was inside. You helped me to remember myself in all that I do. You were my soul that kept me living.
The days came and left with a wink and a smile from the great creator. I couldn’t tell if I was happy or sad, because there was no sadness to know. My emotions were just a blur of smiles. The sun was always shinning, and you were there to show me. You helped me to understand the world- a concept completely lost to me, because you were my world. My everything.
And then all at once time came rushing back to me. And I woke up. There was an emptiness inside unlike I had ever felt before. I hadn’t even opened my eyes yet, but I knew what they would see-and I wept. Too despondent for tears, I cried harder then the rain. My sun was gone, and I was left in darkness. Alone with thoughts beyond regret, and angry with God for letting me know that you were once there. I lay in a vacant bed- cursing the world I was forced to meet. You were gone, and I was there. I hated you for so long, with every fiber of my existence-which seemed so worthless now. I died that morning when I woke up and you weren’t beside me, and I’ve died everyday since.
But I see you now sometimes, in the twinkle of an eye, and the shinning of a star. I see now, that I’ve grown closer to you everyday that I’ve lived without you. I once heard that separation makes you love more, but if there were a way to love more than I am, then I could not fathom it. I miss you more then you will ever know. I miss the way you always caught me gazing through you. I miss the way you tickled my arm while you slept- without knowing. And I miss the way you loved me, and made me feel like every moment was a lifetime. I will always be here, and you will always be there. I hate when you help me understand. I will live my life to dream, and always cry when it rains.
You are my now, my then, and my never was…
The Ultimate Politics Survey
Describe your stance on:
Abortion: choice.. i would never..
Affirmative Action: *thibit*
Age of Consent: AFTER PUBERTY!!!
Animal Testing: shoot the bastards who do it!!!
Death Penalty: Be my guest
Downloading Music/Movies: WOO HOO!! FREE TUNES!!
Drug Decriminalization: *chink eyed* pssst...wanna hit?!
Factory Farming: *thibit*
Free Trade: eh...ok..w/e... trade me your car
Funding of Arts: HELL YEH!!! *bows* ALL HAIL ART!!!
Gay Marriage: what the fuck do you think?!?! IM A LESBIAN!!!
Gun Control: guns don't kill ppl..... we need postal control...
Immigration: GO HOME!!! theres to many right now...
Hardcore Pornography: o0o0o0o0 hehehe o.0 *drools*
Human Cloning: ..can i have a clone of my fav actress for my bedroom?
Miltary Draft: I'm gay with Mental problems..hehe..draft me if you dare...
Minimum Wage: only if it goes up... to oh..idk... SOMETHING THAT CAN BE LIVED ON!!!
Prostitution: ...define 'prostitution'.....
School Vouchers: free lunch rules...
Taxes: suck my left nut....
United Nations: no such thing..they'll all backstab each other if its to there benifit...
Universal Health Care: HAHAHHA... oh ur serious....
War on Terrorism: fight what goes on in our own country b4 you start on another project...
Welfare: for some..ok...others...GET A JOB!!!
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